The outcome of the meeting? Negative PASUM. They are placing me either in KMBanting or KMSeremban to do IB (International Baccalaureate). I'm freaking SAD! :'[ So, next week will most probably be my last week in PASUM. I'll cherish every moment, every second I spend next week with my friends. I'll spend it to the utmost! ;D!
I'm still trying to convince my parents to not let me leave PASUM. I want to reject that offer so badly. Argh! But, the fact is, I couldn't psycho them! Aish! IB is like, the hardest programme ever, man! Shyte, I have to work my ass off, double than I'm working on Asasi right now! It's actually an all rounder-programme, which includes both activities and academics. I know it's GOOD, but I am not confident enough that I'll pull through it. =.='''
Ya Allah, please show me the best pathway! If this is meant to be my future pathway, give me a sign please. If not, please let me reject it, and allow me to stay in PASUM? Pretty please, Ya Allah! Allahu Akhbar, You are the Almighty, You know what's best for everyone. Insya-Allah, I'll get the best from You, with Your will. :)
Thursday, 29 July 2010
Sad or Happy?!
It's early in the morning, and I was woken up my a telephone conversation, between my mum and someone :X. Want to know the story behind it? Hmmm. Let's cut the story short okay?
Why am I in this dilemma, between Sad and Happy? Let me tell you why. I'd most probably leave PASUM and my friends soon. This is a very very disheartening, sad news to share with you all. :'(! This is the reason why I texted you all yesterday, guys. I'm going for a meeting session with someone in MARA later today in the evening. I'll try my best to negotiate to stay at PASUM till the end of the programme. I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE YOU ALL, GUYS! Sobs :'((( I've became so attached to my gang and PASUM, that I don't feel like leaving and when this news came about to me, I was damn depressed. :'(
My first choice? Still Medicine. Then, followed by Engineering (I want to major in Mechanical Eng. so badly, all because of F1! :D), Dentistry (I don't know why it's AFTER Mech. Eng.) and finally, my favourite Economics! It's a bit weird to see my choice jumping about different fields. Hehe. :P
Looking at the brighter side, I'm able to study overseas again, after my hope was crushed by JPA! Nah, never mind, at least I'm not bonded to the government and JPA! Duhhhh. :P But, the problem is, can I excel and not have the trouble of paying MARA back? This worries me much. :E! Another issue is, where would I want to go, which university, in which country? I'm searching for the resolution right now.
Wish me luck guys! :D I know you all don't want to see me leave you all, I feel the same way too. But, this is my future. Everyone wants the best for their future, right? I'll try out my luck with MARA. :)
Why am I in this dilemma, between Sad and Happy? Let me tell you why. I'd most probably leave PASUM and my friends soon. This is a very very disheartening, sad news to share with you all. :'(! This is the reason why I texted you all yesterday, guys. I'm going for a meeting session with someone in MARA later today in the evening. I'll try my best to negotiate to stay at PASUM till the end of the programme. I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE YOU ALL, GUYS! Sobs :'((( I've became so attached to my gang and PASUM, that I don't feel like leaving and when this news came about to me, I was damn depressed. :'(
My first choice? Still Medicine. Then, followed by Engineering (I want to major in Mechanical Eng. so badly, all because of F1! :D), Dentistry (I don't know why it's AFTER Mech. Eng.) and finally, my favourite Economics! It's a bit weird to see my choice jumping about different fields. Hehe. :P
Looking at the brighter side, I'm able to study overseas again, after my hope was crushed by JPA! Nah, never mind, at least I'm not bonded to the government and JPA! Duhhhh. :P But, the problem is, can I excel and not have the trouble of paying MARA back? This worries me much. :E! Another issue is, where would I want to go, which university, in which country? I'm searching for the resolution right now.
Wish me luck guys! :D I know you all don't want to see me leave you all, I feel the same way too. But, this is my future. Everyone wants the best for their future, right? I'll try out my luck with MARA. :)
Wednesday, 28 July 2010
JB - Critical. ^.^
I'm freaking obsess with this song! Listen and read the lyrics carefully, and you will get it. :)))
There's a storm coming up
And I gotta prepare myself
'Cause this feeling is getting stronger everyday
Something's creeping inside
Everything is about to change
Gotta face the fact that I can't walk away
This is critical, I'm feeling helpless
So hysterical, this can't be healthy
I can't eat or sleep when you're not with me
Baby, you're the air I breathe
This is critical, yeahh
So stuck on you
Used to have everything figured out
But it's different now
When you came, you saw
You conquered my heart
It's your laugh and your smile
Wanna stay for a little while
I don't wanna go
I just want you in my arms
This is critical, I'm feeling helpless
So hysterical, this can't be healthy
I can't eat or sleep when you're not with me
Baby, you're the air I breathe
This is critical, yeahh
So stuck on you
Used to run and hide
Used to bend our love
But I can't escape this time,
Ohnooo...
This is critical, I'm feeling helpless
So hysterical, this can't be healthy
I can't eat or sleep when you're not with me
Baby, you're the air I breathe
This is critical, yeahh
Baby, it's so critical (critical)
It's so critical (critical, yeahh and I like it)
Baby, it's so critical (critical)
It's so critical (yeahh)
So stuck on you.
;D
There's a storm coming up
And I gotta prepare myself
'Cause this feeling is getting stronger everyday
Something's creeping inside
Everything is about to change
Gotta face the fact that I can't walk away
This is critical, I'm feeling helpless
So hysterical, this can't be healthy
I can't eat or sleep when you're not with me
Baby, you're the air I breathe
This is critical, yeahh
So stuck on you
Used to have everything figured out
But it's different now
When you came, you saw
You conquered my heart
It's your laugh and your smile
Wanna stay for a little while
I don't wanna go
I just want you in my arms
This is critical, I'm feeling helpless
So hysterical, this can't be healthy
I can't eat or sleep when you're not with me
Baby, you're the air I breathe
This is critical, yeahh
So stuck on you
Used to run and hide
Used to bend our love
But I can't escape this time,
Ohnooo...
This is critical, I'm feeling helpless
So hysterical, this can't be healthy
I can't eat or sleep when you're not with me
Baby, you're the air I breathe
This is critical, yeahh
Baby, it's so critical (critical)
It's so critical (critical, yeahh and I like it)
Baby, it's so critical (critical)
It's so critical (yeahh)
So stuck on you.
;D
Tuesday, 27 July 2010
Jonas, Jonas, Jonas.
Great! I've wasted half my day on the laptop. Downloading new songs, just to update to the laptop's playlist, because it's boring to hear old songs! Ahahax. As if it's my duty to update the playlist everytime I return home. Duhhh.
Damn. I'm still stuck on Calculus and Physics! I hate it when I can't solve a thing. Heart-aching. It annoys me much! Owh, God. Please clear my brain, heart & soul and show me the way to solve those tutorial questions. Insya-Allah. PLEASEEEE! Haiz. =.='''!
In the meantime, let's distract ourselves from workloads and listen to some new songs by Jonas Brothers! I recommend the following, from the newest JONAS LA album :
Damn. I'm still stuck on Calculus and Physics! I hate it when I can't solve a thing. Heart-aching. It annoys me much! Owh, God. Please clear my brain, heart & soul and show me the way to solve those tutorial questions. Insya-Allah. PLEASEEEE! Haiz. =.='''!
In the meantime, let's distract ourselves from workloads and listen to some new songs by Jonas Brothers! I recommend the following, from the newest JONAS LA album :
Invinsible
Hey You
Critical
Be sure to listen to all of them, yea. Love JB! ^.^
Jonas Brothers'-madness is back in me!!!
Monday, 26 July 2010
Emo-ish! Nooo...
For the past few days, I've been so emotional, for some personal reasons. Argh. Let's get over it. I want to get my focus back and concentrate on my studies. 3 weeks to go, and *poof* there comes Mid-Sem Test! Time flies!!!
This whole week is Mid-Sem break. So, I've to finish my homeworks in these few days. I'm planning of going for a movie or an ice-skate, only after that, I'd start revising and do some exercises. Hehe. :D
I'm missing my fellow friends in college already! Aaahhh! *Hugs*!
This whole week is Mid-Sem break. So, I've to finish my homeworks in these few days. I'm planning of going for a movie or an ice-skate, only after that, I'd start revising and do some exercises. Hehe. :D
I'm missing my fellow friends in college already! Aaahhh! *Hugs*!
Make It Right - Joe Jonas. @.@
You say you'll know when you really find the one
But it's hard to tell With the damage that's been done
But I'd like to say that it's your fault
But I know better
Cause I'm a fool to think you'll wait around forever
Maybe I Could have loved you
Maybe I could have shown
That I still do care about you
More than you could know
Don't say it's too, late to try
To make it right
To make it right
I didn't know, how good you were for me
Now it's clear, I've seen another we could be
And I know it's my fault, and I'm gonna treat you better
Cause if I had one wish, you'd be with me forever
Maybe I Could have loved you
Maybe I could have shown
That I still do care about you
More than you could know
Don't say it's too, late to try
To make it right
Is there something I could say
Show me how to break it down
So before you walk away
Take the time to turn around, listen to me now
Maybe I Could have loved you
Maybe I could have shown
That I still do care about you
More than you could know
Don't say it's too, late to try...
Maybe I Could have loved you
Maybe I could have shown
That I still do care about you
More than you could know
Don't say it's too, late to try
To make it right
To make it right
To make it right
Gonna make it right... Yeah.
This song is dedicated to my friends! Miss you all! :DDD!
But it's hard to tell With the damage that's been done
But I'd like to say that it's your fault
But I know better
Cause I'm a fool to think you'll wait around forever
Maybe I Could have loved you
Maybe I could have shown
That I still do care about you
More than you could know
Don't say it's too, late to try
To make it right
To make it right
I didn't know, how good you were for me
Now it's clear, I've seen another we could be
And I know it's my fault, and I'm gonna treat you better
Cause if I had one wish, you'd be with me forever
Maybe I Could have loved you
Maybe I could have shown
That I still do care about you
More than you could know
Don't say it's too, late to try
To make it right
Is there something I could say
Show me how to break it down
So before you walk away
Take the time to turn around, listen to me now
Maybe I Could have loved you
Maybe I could have shown
That I still do care about you
More than you could know
Don't say it's too, late to try...
Maybe I Could have loved you
Maybe I could have shown
That I still do care about you
More than you could know
Don't say it's too, late to try
To make it right
To make it right
To make it right
Gonna make it right... Yeah.
This song is dedicated to my friends! Miss you all! :DDD!
Sunday, 11 July 2010
Gosh!
I'm super-duper-triper-quadraper EXHAUSTED! Rushing to finish up my tutorial works and stuff. Argh. I'm getting no adequate sleep each and everyday, which will result in losing focus in lectures. Duhhh. What can I do? I have to make sure or like what a friend of mine said, I WILL GET 4.0 FLAT, Insya-Allah with Allah's will! (credits to Sufi :D)
Went to KLCC with The Weekenders + 2 new friends yesterday. An adventurous journey from UM to KLCC, with 3 bus transits, me being the tour guider and the night ended with us rushing, running madly, to catch the last Putra train back to UM. Hahax. Both 9 Temples : Death Ghost and Eclipse was boring! I did something illegal yesterday. I switched cinema without anyone noticing! Ahahax. :P!
Throughout this week, I've learnt a little bit more about what life is all about. It had widen my thoughts and perception on Life. Life is not that hard to live, anyway. All we gotta do is do what's best for our afterlife (akhirat).
Action speaks louder than words. People may say bad things behind your back, but you know best about yourself, and your friends know who you are. So, stop bitching about others and don't judge a book by its cover. Get to know that particular person first, before you start to judge them. Everyone isn't perfect. So, we have to accept them the way they are, don't try to correct them or try to "help" change their attitude. It's human nature to not be liked by everyone. In fact, it's impossible to make everybody to like you the way you are. To me, people's perception is not that important afterall. What's more important is, you know and understand yourself. Plus, Allah understands you. =D!
Went to KLCC with The Weekenders + 2 new friends yesterday. An adventurous journey from UM to KLCC, with 3 bus transits, me being the tour guider and the night ended with us rushing, running madly, to catch the last Putra train back to UM. Hahax. Both 9 Temples : Death Ghost and Eclipse was boring! I did something illegal yesterday. I switched cinema without anyone noticing! Ahahax. :P!
These pictures was taken at the 12th RC's lakeside. -The Weekenders-
Action speaks louder than words. People may say bad things behind your back, but you know best about yourself, and your friends know who you are. So, stop bitching about others and don't judge a book by its cover. Get to know that particular person first, before you start to judge them. Everyone isn't perfect. So, we have to accept them the way they are, don't try to correct them or try to "help" change their attitude. It's human nature to not be liked by everyone. In fact, it's impossible to make everybody to like you the way you are. To me, people's perception is not that important afterall. What's more important is, you know and understand yourself. Plus, Allah understands you. =D!
Sunday, 4 July 2010
Weekends. -.-
Normally, back then when I was still in my secondary school, weekends are the days where I have my break, time out of homework loads (but not on the SPM month). Now, it seems so vulnerable. Weekends are as equal to the weekdays. Perhaps, more hectic than weekdays. Why do I say so???
Hmmph. =.='''! At the end of every week, there will always be unfinished tutorials, reports, and revisions to be completed. There will never be a week without stuffs to complete, infinite, never ending here in PASUM. Plus, I'm facing a huge problem of digesting and memorizing FQAH0112 (the taxonomy part of REDO in biology). Haiz. Can you imagine? We have a short test for biology every week, and this so-called continuous learning is adding extra pressure on my lovely brain. Lolz. That is only biology. How about the rest? Argh! XE!
Straining of the brain is in progress... That's why I need weekends to be my period of relaxation. A time for me to release my tensions and to take a time off the books and homework. I've tried swimming, but it made little effect. I need other methods to release these pressures!
Another issue is not having enough sleep and rest. Sometimes, I face fatigue situations, where I have to rush to places with only an hour's break. Tiredness overwhelmed as I get back to my room. And sometimes, I could not even afford to take a nap, with the workloads I have in mind. It is that BAD! What could I do but not to bear these situations? Insya-Allah, with the help from Allah, I can, CAN, go through this course smoothly and achieve my target of 4.0 flat in both semesters. Insya-Allah! =D
In this meantime, I will try to not add too much pressure on myself. I'm scared that I will have a nervous breakdown. :S! Insya-Allah, no! Thank God, I have my group of friends who accompanies me and were wiling to lend their ears to me. Giving me some useful advices. Thanks guys! Love you all <3!!! ;DDD
Hmmph. =.='''! At the end of every week, there will always be unfinished tutorials, reports, and revisions to be completed. There will never be a week without stuffs to complete, infinite, never ending here in PASUM. Plus, I'm facing a huge problem of digesting and memorizing FQAH0112 (the taxonomy part of REDO in biology). Haiz. Can you imagine? We have a short test for biology every week, and this so-called continuous learning is adding extra pressure on my lovely brain. Lolz. That is only biology. How about the rest? Argh! XE!
Straining of the brain is in progress... That's why I need weekends to be my period of relaxation. A time for me to release my tensions and to take a time off the books and homework. I've tried swimming, but it made little effect. I need other methods to release these pressures!
Another issue is not having enough sleep and rest. Sometimes, I face fatigue situations, where I have to rush to places with only an hour's break. Tiredness overwhelmed as I get back to my room. And sometimes, I could not even afford to take a nap, with the workloads I have in mind. It is that BAD! What could I do but not to bear these situations? Insya-Allah, with the help from Allah, I can, CAN, go through this course smoothly and achieve my target of 4.0 flat in both semesters. Insya-Allah! =D
In this meantime, I will try to not add too much pressure on myself. I'm scared that I will have a nervous breakdown. :S! Insya-Allah, no! Thank God, I have my group of friends who accompanies me and were wiling to lend their ears to me. Giving me some useful advices. Thanks guys! Love you all <3!!! ;DDD
Thursday, 1 July 2010
I'm "a bit" homesick. Ahahax. XP!
As I've never been away from home more than 3 days (the camps in school) throughout my whole life before, so this is the first experience I had so far, staying in a university hostel (which is not too far from home anyway, Duhhh!). Up to date, hmm, what I can conclude is, I've learnt a lot in being MORE independent, because I do think I am already independent even before I entered PASUM. Hehe. xP!
I've met tons of new friends, which I sometimes can't remember their names (oops, sorry guys!). And also, the most important thing now is, I've a group or a gang, called the "Weekenders",which consists of 4 Hayat students (including me!). Ahahax. Nothing much. It's just that we click together and often go almost anywhere together. Hee. =D It's great to have clicks this fast. Problems could be shared, and resolved in a shorter time, especially our TUTORIAL homeworks!
Lectures, Practicals and Tutorial classes. Sigh. =.='''! 8am - 5pm daily. What a hectic life I have now. But, I rather like the situation now, compared to that period of time where I stayed home, and did nothing. Hahax. Hectic Life is absolutely better than a plain Boring Life. I love being busy and occupied with work or stuffs to do. So, Asasians, lets enjoy this hectic moment of our lives. We can only go through this kind of experience once, therefore, enjoy it and make use of it to the fullest, to enable us to get hold of our bright, shining future! Insya-Allah. ;)
That's all for now. I have to get some rest and get up early everyday. May Allah bless our lives. Insya-Allah. :D
I've met tons of new friends, which I sometimes can't remember their names (oops, sorry guys!). And also, the most important thing now is, I've a group or a gang, called the "Weekenders",which consists of 4 Hayat students (including me!). Ahahax. Nothing much. It's just that we click together and often go almost anywhere together. Hee. =D It's great to have clicks this fast. Problems could be shared, and resolved in a shorter time, especially our TUTORIAL homeworks!
Lectures, Practicals and Tutorial classes. Sigh. =.='''! 8am - 5pm daily. What a hectic life I have now. But, I rather like the situation now, compared to that period of time where I stayed home, and did nothing. Hahax. Hectic Life is absolutely better than a plain Boring Life. I love being busy and occupied with work or stuffs to do. So, Asasians, lets enjoy this hectic moment of our lives. We can only go through this kind of experience once, therefore, enjoy it and make use of it to the fullest, to enable us to get hold of our bright, shining future! Insya-Allah. ;)
That's all for now. I have to get some rest and get up early everyday. May Allah bless our lives. Insya-Allah. :D
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