I Believe In You.

No, I've never seen the sky
As vanilla as tonight
And it's here I hold you close
When I finally close my eyes
And it never ever fails
The sun comes up, the story dies
And I don't know why

But baby, that's all I need
Is someone like you burnin' through me
Oh and it's never fair
The way that we meet and you disappear
No, it don't feel like sleep
When I'm this alive it's true
I believe in you, I believe in you, oh

It's so hard to give you up
But too easy to pretend
Like the way the leaves would fall
Tell the both of us would end
What to tell my friends

When baby, that's all I need
Is someone like you burnin' through me
Oh and it's never fair
The way that we meet and you disappear
No, it don't feel like sleep
When I'm this alive, it's true
I believe in you, I believe in you, oh yeah

What you want isn't what you get
Isn't what you want isn't what you get
What you want isn't what you get
Isn't what you want isn't what you get

I believe in you
What you want isn't what you get
Isn't what you want isn't what you get
I believe in you
What you want isn't what you get
Isn't what you want isn't what you get

'Cause baby, that's all I need
Is someone like you burnin' through me
Oh and it's never fair
The way that me meet and you disappear

Oh and it's oh' so real
The way that we talk, the way that you feel
Oh and I want to scream
But I know the fault lies with me

'Cause I believe in you, hey
I believe in you, I believe in you, oh, oh, oh, oh

Trust & Believe.

Getting the trust and believe from the people around you isn't an easy job. In fact, some of us, don't even completely believe in ourselves! Low levels of self-esteem and self-confidence adds on to make this matter worst. I used to have low confidence levels, but thanks to my dad, I'm now confident enough of myself. Although, sometimes I know I'm a bit over-confident of myself. Okay. That's EGO you are talking about. Haha.

   Yes, I admit that I have some trust issues in people. Still, I'm trying my best to put a little bit more of trust in others. Why should we not trust people completely? Hmm. In my point of view, these are the reasons :

• You'll might just get a little unlucky, and your trust is betrayed by someone close enough to you, for example: your Best Friend?? Lolz.
• You'll get depressed by the betrayal.
• You'll lose focus on the things you are doing, example : Studies, Work?
• You'll feel worthless. No one wants to be your friend. Bla, bla, bla...
• To those who are a little bit extreme, they would give up on life. *Ridiculous thing to be ever done!*

   Thus, the moral of the story is, to NOT TRUST PEOPLE EASILY AND COMPLETELY!

P/S : I'm not bringing bad influence to people, this is just something I've gained from my experience so far. Hee. No offence to anyone. :)

It's Not Too Late.

Here I am
Feels like the walls are closing in
Once again it's time to face it and be strong
I wanna do the right thing now
I know it's up to me some how
I've lost my way

If I could take it all back I would now
I never meant to let you all down
And now I've got to try to turn it all around
And figure out how to fix this
I know there's a way so I promise
I'm gonna clean up this mess I made
Maybe It's not to late
Maybe it's not to late oh

So I'll take a stand
Even though it's complicated
If I can I wanna change the way I've made it
I gotta do the right thing now
I know it's up to me some how
I'll find my way

If I could take it all back I would now
I never meant to let you all down
And now I've got to try to turn it all around
And figure out how to fix this
I know there's a way so I promise
I'm gonna clean up the mess I made
Maybe It's not to late

I'm gonna find the strength
To be the one who that holds it all together
Show you that I'm sorry
But I know that we can make it better

If I could take it all back I would now
I never meant to let you all down
And now I've got to try to turn it all around
And figure out how to fix this
I know there's a way so I promise
I'm gonna clean up the mess I made
Maybe It's not to late

I never meant to let you all down
Now I've got to try to turn it all around
And figure out how to fix this
I know there's a way so I promise
I'm gonna clean up this mess I made
Maybe It's not to late
Maybe it's not to late oh yeah

AGAIN, back in Penang. =.=

AGAIN. AGAIN. And AGAIN. I'll be away from home for at least another 6 weeks. Back in Penang. Hmm. I guess, I'll just have to cope and adapt to these kinda situations. As a preparation to fly to Ireland, perhaps? Insya-Allah. :)

   Yes, Yes, YES! I know I have to be grateful to God. Alhamdulillah. I'm just getting used to this new "away-from-home" thingy. So, give me a little more time, I'll be just fine. :D

   Now, what's more important is, to manage my finance and cut down on my shopaholic-ness. And also, I'm going for a healthy DIET! Hohoho. It's not that I'm not eating, just to stay healthy and reduce those junk food consumptions. Hee. Chocolates? Hurm. I think I'll reduce you in my diet. Ahaha. "Reduce". xP Been finding for a weighing machine the whole week, but I didn't managed to find one, not a single one. Haha. Perhaps God doesn't want me to know how "Heavy" I am now. Ahaha. xP I'm not FAT, by the way! Duhhh. Just chubbier. CUTER! :PPP

You're My Favorite Song. ;)

Words don't come easy
Without a melody
I'm always thinking
In terms of do-re-mi
I should be hiking, swimming
Laughing with you
Instead, I'm all out of tune

But what you don't know
You lift me off the ground
You're inspiration
You helped me find my sound
Just like a baseline in half-time
You hold down the groove
That's why I'm counting on you

And if I heard you on the radio
I'd never want to change a single note
It's what I'm trying to say all along
You're my favorite song

I'm in a session, writing tracks
You got another class to teach
And then rehearsal with the band
You're always one step out of reach
I'm looking for some harmony with you
It comes so naturally
You help me find the right key

And when I hear you on the radio
I never want to change a single note
It's what I tried to say all along
You're my favorite song
My favorite song

And when I hear you on the radio
I never want to change a single note
It's what I tried to say all along
You're my favorite song
You're my favorite song

Seb the Ultimate F1 Champion! ;DDD

YESSSS! Finally. Seb won the Abu Dhabi GP, and also the 2010 F1 Championship! After being the first runner up last year, SEBASTIAN VETTEL aka Seb won this year's! Yeaaaaayyyyyy! ;))) Thank you for NOT putting my trust and franticness of you to waste. Love you Seb! Hahahaha. :D

   23 years old, and he's the youngest F1 driver ever to win a championship. Lewis' record was broken, as Seb is 6 months younger than Lewis. Heee. I'm proud of Seb!!! Way to go RedBull, congratulations! Alonso came in second and Webber third. Pity that Alonso didn't perform well yesterday. *Jgn marah SasJoe* Hehehe. :P

   Yes, I'm an official F1 Freak. Who says a girl can't be one? Weird, I know. I get that weird comments from almost everyone. So, what? I am me. Duhhh. I'm one in a million! Ahaha. I feel very special right now. xP Nahhh. Just joking. ;P Formula 1 is a High Class sports. Unlike football! Duhhh. :PPP

Never Say U Can't - Bruno Mars.

Oh (4x)

When I was just a little boy
Barely strong enough to stand
I could always count on him
Oh

He thought me everything I know
And ’till this day it shows
He was more than just a friend (Ah ah ah)

There were so many times I would doubt myself
But his words were always there to help

How would it be?
Where I am?
If my father didn’t tell me
To never say I can’t

He’d carry me
And never let me fall
Oh and the only thing he asked
Right before he passed
Was to never say you can’t

Oh
Never say you can’t
Oh oh oh Oh

So when last rain begins to fall
And you’re out there on your own
And you can’t see a thing
No no no

Just find a voice that understands
For me it was my old man
Taught me to say the words I can
Oh

There were so many times I would doubt myself
But his words were always there to help

How would it be?

Where I am?
If my father didn’t tell me
To never say I can’t

He’d carry me
And never let me fall
Oh and the only thing he asked
Right before he passed
Was to never say you can’t

Everything he taught me would stay with me forever
No I won’t forget a thing
Oh because of dad I now know myself better
And I hope I can do for him what he did for me

How would it be?
Where I am?
If my father didn’t tell me
To never say I can’t

He’d carry me
And never let me fall
Oh and the only thing he asked
Right before he passed
Was to never say you can’t

Oh
Never say you can’t
Oh
Never say you can’t

Sometimes.

Sometimes. Often. Constantly.

   We have to sometimes be a little selfish, prioritize ourself above the others. Let others call you selfish, just let them be. What's more important is, at least, you have your own time, attention and thoughts for yourself. I am me. And I'm just being me. Criticize me as you wish, I don't really care anymore. Accept me as I am. NEVER try to change me. Because I'm one stubborn girl. Probably, the most stubborn girl in the world. Can't stand the way I act and my attitude?? Back off! Duhhh. x|

Exhausting week! =$

Tired. Tired. Tired.

   This entire week was totally exhausting! I don't exactly know why, but it was really tiring! Probably because of the huge amount of workload I've received within this week. =S Argh! Don't let me get started on the assignments. I feel like going back to PASUM already. Although there's tons of tutorials to work out on, I felt happy to finish it up. =( But not here.

   Okay. Lately, I sleep early, eat alot, and fb-ed less. There's some good and bad side of that. Haha. Sleeping early, and less amount of time spent on fb arel good achievements. But, eating a lot is really NOT ME! WTHeck man. What happened to me lately?! I'm not sure either what has got into me, after I've returned here in KB from the Deepavali holidays. I've gain much weight I think for the past few months. Blame it on the pressures and chocolatesssss! Aha. :P

Life isn't THAT Simple.

Simplicity is SIMPLE. But LIFE isn't just that SIMPLE.

   Yeah, I know, I'm just 18. I don't know what's the real meaning of life yet. I don't really know how awful the world is outside there, yet! At least, I've tasted a bit of it already, during these 18 years of living. =)

   Sometimes, you just can't figure out what's best for yourself, until you've gone through those wrong roads. Life is to learn. To learn from mistakes and trying best not to repeat it. But, of course, if there's someone to guide you, i.e. your parents, you will most probably never go through the wrong, learning pathway. Haaa. Neither it's a bad thing, nor a good one. It has its own pros and cons. Hee.

P/S : I'm crapping here. Just ignore this post, if you are annoyed by it. Aha! ;P

Sorry bloggie! Hee. =D

Sorry for not updating you, my baby bloggie. Haha. Apparently, I was a little busy back in KL. And now, since I'm back here in KB, I can update you often! Yeay! Hehe.

   I had fun during the 3 short-day-break in KL. Friday, Saturday, Sunday. All filled with great moments, spent with family and friends. =) Those 3 days had really made me don't wanna return to this place. Haa. :P But, I have NO CHOICE! I need to study and stay here for the next 7 months. Nevermind, at least, I have great friends here to accompany me. :)

   F1 UPDATES : Seb had finally won, after a disappointing race ending in Korean GP last 2 weeks. Yeay! Superb 1-2 finish! Webber came in second, and were followed by Alonso, Lewis and the otherssss. Haha. Redbull on top of the constructors' standings and Seb is nearing to the crown. Hee. =D
Thanks to Luscious Liz for not making any trouble today. Heeeeee. =D

It's NOVEMBER! =D

Time really does fly, huh? In just a blink of an eye, without realising, it's already the 1st of November of 2010. It is nearing the end of the year, yet, I think I've only just started my college life. 7 more months to go, and Insya-Allah, I will be on my way to Ireland to pursue Medicine. Wishing hard that I could get pass the interview and score higher than Band 7 in IELTS. =) Insya-Allah. Amin.

   October has ended. November is on its way, just beginning. Wishing for superb days and weeks ahead. Insya-Allah. Hoping that I could reduce my shopaholic-ness as soon as I get back in KL. Aha! 3 more days to go. Can't bear it anymore. I'm heading back HOME!!! Yeay! Huhu. ;)

   I've calculated approximately, and apparently, I've been away from home for more than 6 weeks already! Gosh. I wonder how crazy will I be when I get back home?? Ahaha. xD The level of homesickness is already at stake. If I were to stay here, in this boring and dull place called PV, for another weekend, I'll totally lose my focus on my studies. I need to get back to at least, recharge and rejuvenate my mind from all these boring-ness here. It's darn important dude.

   Mondays are heaven to my Pre-Med group, Group E. This is the third consecutive week that we aren't having our labs and the combined Maths class starts at 5pm and ends at 7pm. It's kinda boring to wait for the class to start late, tragic, but what could we do, rather than to wait patiently? Duhhh. Honestly, I hate this kinda schedule. It's time wastage! But, I guess this is the way how private institutions are run. Let it be.

P/S : I've deactivated my Fb account. Only for a few days. Don't you worry. I've got my personal reasons. Try not to ask, okie? Thx. =)