~iCeY 'AiShA~

   You all come across the name ~iCeY 'AiShA~ and might wonder what in the world is that, and what's behind that nickname of mine? Okay, I'll give you the full coverage on the birth of the name.

   I got this idea of this nickname when I was around the age of 13, Form 1. It was actually derived from my name "Aisha". Ais is Ice in English. I was still a little immature that time around, so I added a "y" to ICE, forming the nickname ICEY! Yeah... Later I found out ICEY is suppose to be spelled as ICY in the dictionary. But, who cares? Duhhh.

   So, that was the history of the birth of Icey Aisha. Hee. :D

P/S : N.A.'A. is the initials of my full name. Nur Azizah 'Aisha. Hee. ;)

What's there in your LIFE?

Have you ever thought of the important things in your life? What matters the most and what matters the least in Life?

   Faith. Sincerity. Trustworthiness. Belief. Self-Confidence. Etc... All these are important to me in life. But sometimes, I do feel I'm losing grip of it. It's slipping from my life. I feel empty. That's when RELIGION matters the most! Without holding on to something, you'll easily lose touch from the ground.

   Stress. Tensions. Conflicts. That's where problems arise. And our job is to resolve them. Resolving them are hard processes to be made. You'll always need someone beside you, to guide you through life, to show you the way. The right pathway to the right track of life. And that is ALLAH the Almighty. =D

   Alhamdulillah. Thank God. I still have my senses when I'm dealing with stress and problems. Please don't take that away from me God. I rely much on my senses to get through life. =)

Complicated Life! I HATE!!!

I. HATE. THIS. KINDA. LIFE. COMPLICATED. HEART-ACHING. STUPID.

ARGH!!! PLEASE STOP IT. STOP IT. PLEASEEEE!!!

THE END.

Exam's OVER!

Yeaaaaaaay! Sem 1 is over. Just completed my Final exam today! Hee. Entering Sem 2 next week. Sadly, no semester break is given to us. Isn't that just mean? Duhhh. Whatever.

   Anyways. I'm heading to Penang Island again tomorrow! After about a month's gap without enjoyment here in KB, I'll maximize the time spent and have funnnnn!!! Lets partaaay! Ahaha. xD

   Missing home, missing my family (though my parents just came and visited me here), missing my cutie cats, missing my friends in PASUM, and missing etc etc etc. :P I wana go back to KL! Argh! =.= Please give me at least a week's leave, oh pretty please??? I need a semester break. I demand a semester break! Gosh. =S

Dreaming Big.

Listened to David Cook's version of Dream Big, and this sudden thought of dreaming big came into my mind.

   The lyrics made sense to me. "Cause if you don't dream big, what's the use of dreaming?" Dreaming is to imagine what we are about to achieve. Without imagination, there won't be any dreams. Without dreams, life would be meaningless, lifeless, dull and boring. Whether our dreams would come true or not, lets just leave that to God. =D

   We, mankind, are asked to do good on earth and carry out our responsibility well. So, why don't we DREAM BIG, and try our best to put them into realization. Dream hard, and work hard to realize it. Insya-Allah we can! ;)

   I personally have big dreams too. My goals/dreams before I reach 30 years old is definitely BIG, but I know it's not impossible to be achieved.Plus, my family too, have BIG DREAMS for me. My goals? I want to finish my specialization in Otolaryngology by the age of 30 and become an ENT specialist in some big hospital in the world. Perhaps overseas, Insya-Allah. ;) I want to be the best! In fact, everyone does. Thus, lets set our minds on dreaming big. =)))

Open Our Eyes.

Look around yourselves
Can’t you see this wonder
Spreaded infront of you
The clouds floating by
The skies are clear and blue
Planets in the orbits
The moon and the sun
Such perfect harmony

Let’s start question in ourselves
Isn’t this proof enough for us
Or are we so blind
To push it all aside..
No..

We just have to
Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look bright to see the signs
We can’t keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
(Allah..)
Guide us every single day..
(Allah..)
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..

Look inside yourselves
Such a perfect order
Hiding in yourselves
Running in your veins
What about anger love and pain
And all the things you’re feeling
Can you touch them with your hand?
So are they really there?

Lets start question in ourselves
Isn’t this proof enough for us?
Or are we so blind
To push it all aside..?
No..

We just have to
Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look bright to see the signs
We can’t keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
(Allah..)
Guide us every single day..
(Allah..)
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..

When a baby’s born
So helpless and weak
And you’re watching him growing..
So why deny
Whats in front of your eyes
The biggest miracle of life..

We just have to
Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look quiet we’ll see the signs
We can’t keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
(Allah..)
Guide us every single day..
(Allah..)
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..

Open your eyes and hearts and minds
If you just look bright to see the signs
We can’t keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
(Allah..)
Guide us every single day..
(Allah..)
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..

Allah..
You created everything
We belong to You
Ya Robb we raise our hands
Forever we thank You..
Alhamdulillah..

Two Frogs.

A group of frogs were traveling through the woods, and two of them fell into a deep pit. When the other frogs saw how deep the pit was, they told the two frogs that they were as good as dead. The two frogs ignored the comments and tried to jump up out of the pit with all their might. The other frogs kept telling them to stop, that they were as good as dead. Finally, one of the frogs took heed to what the other frogs were saying and gave up. He fell down and died.
The other frog continued to jump as hard as he could. Once again, the crowd of frogs yelled at him to stop the pain and just die. He jumped even harder and finally made it out. When he got out, the other frogs said, "Did you not hear us?" The frog explained to them that he was deaf. He thought they were encouraging him the entire time.

This story teaches two lessons :
1. There is power of life and death in the tongue. An encouraging word to someone who is down can lift them up and help them make it through the day.
2. A destructive word to someone who is down can be what it takes to kill them.
Be careful of what you say. Speak life to those who cross your path. The power of words... it is sometimes hard to understand that an encouraging word can go such a long way. Anyone can speak words that tend to rob another of the spirit to continue in difficult times. Special is the individual who will take the time to encourage another.

Tired. =S

This whole week of studying is wearing me out, dude! Tired, Exhausted, Feeling Fatigue!!! I'm going mad if this goes on and on and on.... Thankfully exams are just 2 days away. Can't wait to face it and get over it ASAP! Duhhh.

   Aish. I've prepared a studying schedule, but most of it failed to be followed by dear Miss Aisha. Haha. Most of the days were spent on head-cracking Bio, and little did I concentrate on the others. Haiz. =.='''

   Tensions building. Just recovered from fever actually. Which is a normal thing that often happens to me, everytime exam is around the corner. Hah! Anyways. Good Luck to my Pre-Meds pals. All the best in Final Sem 1 Exam, next week! See ya soon. ;DDD

Limits.

Seriously, today I had had my limit. Enough of having a very packed schedule this week. I've reached my max limit. Slept very late almost every night, and today I slept in class?! It's not so ME. I don't sleep in classes. God. What happened to me, lately? Need to get some good rest next week, maximize both sleeping and studying time. Insya-Allah. Avoid DISTRACTIONS. Focus on getting myself 4.0 flat! =D

Final Sem 1 Exam. In 2 weeks time. =S

These two weeks had been hectic for me. Lecture starts 8am, and finish very late in the evening everyday, making me exhausted. Gosh. Lecturers are chasing on finishing and covering the syllabus, as next week is the study week and the week after is already the final exam week. =S

   A lot of stuffs had happened during this whole week. Perhaps, I could conclude that this week was a mixture of happiness, frustrations, and stresses. Yes, those bad ones won over the good one, again. Been emo-ish for the past couple of days. Don't ask why.

   Anyway. My sister is going on a trip to China, Macau & Hong Kong in 7 days, leaving tomorrow! I envy her very much! Zzzzz. ={ Wish I could travel that far for holidays with my friends. Although Penang is finally capturing my heart slowly, I'm still homesick. Miss home, miss my parents, miss my siblings, miss my cats! ='(

When I'm With You - Faber Drive.

Saw you walk into the room
Thought I'd try to talk to you
Babe am I ever glad you wanted me to
It's been two years to the day
Half the time I've been away
I know I'm not there enough but that's gonna change
'cause I'm coming back
To show you that I'm keeping the promise I made

When I'm with you I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I'll still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count when I'm with you

Yeah we've had our ups and down
But we've always worked them out
Babe am I ever glad we've got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
'cause when I'm not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I'm coming back to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
When ever you're not around
When I kiss you I'll still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
When I'm with you
Whatever it takes I'm not gonna break the promise I made
When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I'll still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
(Make every second count)
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
Yeah 

I Wouldn't Change A Thing. =)

It's like he doesn't hear a word I say
His mind is somewhere far away
And I don't know how to get there
It's like
(She's way too serious)
All he wants is to chill out
(She's always in a rush)
He makes me wanna pull all my hair out
(And interrupting)
Like he doesn't even care
(Like she doesn't even care)

(Demi)
You,
(Joe)
me
(Demi)
We're face to face
(Both)
But we don't see eye to eye
(Demi) (echoes: Joe)
Like fire and rain
(Like fire and rain)
You can drive me insane
(You can drive me insane)

(Both)
But I can't stay mad at you for anything
(Demi) (echoes: Joe)
We're Venus and Mars
(We're Venus and Mars)
We're like different stars
(Like different stars)
(Both)
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a thing


(Joe) (echoes:Demi)
She's always trying to save the day
Just wanna let my music play
She's all or nothing
But my feelings never change
(Why does he try to read my mind?)
I try to read her mind
(It's not good to psychoanalyze)
She tries to pick a fight
To get attention
That's what all of my friends say
(That's what all of my friends say)

(Demi)
You,
(Joe)
Me
(Demi)
We're face to face
(Both)
But we don't see eye to eye
(Demi) (echoes: Joe)
Like fire and rain
(Like fire and rain)
You can drive me insane
(You can drive me insane)
(Both)
But I can't stay mad at you for anything
(DEMI) (echoes: JOE)
We're Venus and Mars
(We're Venus and Mars)
We're like different stars
(Like different stars)
(BOTH)
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a thing
(Joe)
When I'm yes, she's no
(Demi)
When I hold on, he just lets go

(BOTH)
We're perfectly imperfect
But I wouldn't change a thing, no
(Demi) (echoes: Joe)
We're like fire and rain
(Like fire and rain)
You can drive me insane
(You can drive me insane)
(Both)
But I can't stay mad at you for anything
(Demi) (echoes: Joe)
We're Venus and Mars
(We're Venus and Mars)
We're like different stars
(Like different stars)
(Both)
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a thing
(Both)
But I can't stay mad at you for anything
(Demi) (echoes: Joe)
We're Venus and Mars
(We're Venus and Mars)
We're like different stars
(Like different stars)
(Both)
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a
Wouldn't change a thing.

Freedom.

Everybody needs freedom in this world. Freedom of choice, Freedom of speech. The problem is, we don't normally get the adequate freedom we should. There will often be obstructions, barriers, preventing us from getting our freedom rights. What do we do then? Lets think about that. =)

Things Will Never Be The Same.

Try to fall asleep tonight
Lay awake and dream of a life
Where we thought that we could make it
We wasted all our time
And I wouldn't change a single thing, I know

We get closer and closer again
But we're falling apart
I'm losing, you're losing a friend
It's always over before we start
You're asking for love
And I wish that it could be the way that it was
But it's over
There's no one to blame
It'll never be the same


Two wrongs don't make it right
Two hearts are on the line
Maybe we could have made it
Have waited
Done this right
In the end, I'm a friend
But that's all I am to you, oh

We get closer and closer again
But we're falling apart
I'm losing, you're losing a friend
It's always over before we start
You're asking for love
And I wish that it could be the way that it was
But it's over
There's no one to blame
No, it'll never be the same
No, it'll never be the same
(No, no, no, no)

We get closer and closer again
But we're falling apart
I'm losing, you're losing a friend
It's always over before we start
You're asking for love
And I wish I believed you
But it's easy to see that it's over
There's no one to blame
It'll never be the same
No, it'll never be the same
No, it'll never be the same

It's over
There's no one to blame
It'll never be the same (x4)



[As stuff happens, we can't reverse the wrongdoings we've made. What we could only do is to try to move on and learn from the mistakes made. Trying to fix the situation would only worsen it. So, Things Will Never Be The Same as it was before.]

Selamat Hari Raya! =D

I'M BACK! ;)))

   Yeay! Finally, I'm back in KL. Had just arrived this morning and as usual, I boarded the midnight bus from Penang back to KL. =D Love to travel late at night, am used to it, as my dad loves to travel anywhere far late at night. Sunnah Rasul, he said. In case you all didn't notice, traveling in the middle of the night feels so much faster compared to traveling during daytime. And, the most important of all is, there's no traffic JAM! Hee. :D

   Yesterday done the last terawih of this year's Ramadhan. Today is the last day of fasting. And tomorrow's Hari Raya. I'm in my excited state! Heeeeee. =D Let the shopping adventure in Jln. TAR begin tonight. Huhuhu. Baju Raya hunt! ;)

   Anyways. Just wanted to say the Raya wishes once again to the people who didn't get my text message. Hee. :D

Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Diharapkan salah silapku dapat dimaafkanmu, if any. Semoga Aidilfitri ini diberkati Allah SWT. Insya-Allah. Amin. 

=) N.A.'Aisha

Can't wait to GO BACK! ;)

3 days to go.

   Miss home already. Hmmph. :( Going back on the 8th, again, midnight travelling. Hee. :D

   Right now, preparing for the bio small group discussion (SGD) thingy for tomorrow. I have no idea what and how is it going to be carried out by the Philippines lecturers. (Dr. Carlo is cute. :P!) Lolz. Only got to know about this discussion thing yesterday. What a short notice, huh? Had to find out about the 6 chromosomal mutations. Syndrome this and syndrome that. Duhhh. It's SYNDROM-ing me already. Haha.

   I want to go back! Haven't done any shopping yet for Raya. Again, as my family usually does every year, last minute shopping. It's fun though. You should try going to Jln. TAR on the night before Raya. Love the crowd and the excitement of the people there. And also, the cheap prices. Huhu. ;P

Smile =)

Life goes on. =)

We Don't Always Get What We Want. =(

Life is very simple, yeah. But, it could get complicated at times. We don't always get what we've wished for. And it's frustrating when things happen that way. All we could do is pray hard, that what we had wished for would come true. Insya-Allah. =/

I'm leaving once more. :(

Hung out in 12th College and PASUM yesterday and today. And I'm sadly, heavy-heartedly, leaving for Penang once more tomorrow morning, before coming back again for Hari Raya holidays on 8 September till 19 September. Not really feeling of going back to Kepala Batas. =.=!

   Had really enjoyed spending these 2 days with my friends in PASUM. Thanks for sparing you time friends. I appreciate it much, despite tons of tutorials which you all have to finish this week. Huhuhu. :P! I'll come and visit you all often, when I'm free, I promise. ;)

   Love and miss you all. :)))

I will never ever forget about you guys. ^_^

Although I'm currently studying far away in Penang, I will always cherish those memorable moments in PASUM that I've went through with you guys. :'-)

   These pictures of sand-drawings are dedicated to all of you. Each and everyone of you were, are and will always be special to me. ;D

Miss you all very much!

   See you guys soon! XO XO!

Penang! Huhu. ;D

I'm back in KL! Yeay! Finally, my homesickness has ended. Woohoo. I miss my family, my cats, my friends in PASUM and UM! ;D

   Just arrived home a couple of hours ago, and here I am, excited to blog about yesterday's adventure in  Penang, although I had no enough sleep in the superfast-supercold Transnasional express bus. Hahaha. Okay, let me describe it one by one.

   Me and 2 of my housemates were boarding the late night buses, so we decided to do a short tour in Penang in the evening. And guess what? I hit the beach! Beaches excites me much. Hee. :D We took the ferry from Butterworth to the Penang Island. Then, we headed to Batu Feringghi by RapidPenang bus. Wee~! Yes, Yes, I'm a very adventurous girl. You can put me anywhere in the world, give me a few days time, I guarantee you, I'll explore the whole place and try to master it. All thanks to my dad's so-called army training. Hee. Last two weeks, I went to Queensbay Mall and Prangin Mall all by myself, alone. It's no big deal to me, as I love to shop and survey on places alone. Easier that way. ;D

   Anyway, Batu Feringghi is freaking awesome man! Beautiful, turquoise-colored sea and the white, fine sand that lies along the beach, had really excite me, as soon as I got there. ;))) I'll try parachuting and horse-riding in Batu Feringghi one day, when I've accumulate enough savings to do so. Both aren't cheap activities, you know. Lolz.

   Now, here's the pictures of the beautiful and famous beach of Batu Feringghi and the gals. :D

   And we went to see my bro to breakfast together in Penang. We had KFC. Hehehe. :P After that, we rushed back to Penang Central to catch our buses. Hee. ;D

The End. ;)

Today is the 23rd of August. =D

23rd of August? Hmm. Nothing special happened today. But, everyday is precious to me! Heeeee. =D Bio Test went well, the questions weren't hard. And I'm not saying I'm smart, don't get me wrong, yea. Duh!

   ACMS is kinda boring. But, I believe soon, it'll get interesting. Insya-Allah. ;D

   Must watch this weekend's Belgium GP F1 race. I've missed so many races already. I wana see Seb on the podium! :DDD

The Chronicles of Chocolates & Donuts.

When stress comes, it involves Chocolates and Donuts. Haha. Having crazy craves for both right now. Puasa! As I've said before, I'm a chocoholic and now comes the new term, DONUT-HOLIC. Duhhh. Ever since the Ramadhan Bazaar is here, I've bought Donuts each and everyday. Trying not to, but, but, but, as soon as I get a sight of donuts, hoho, buying them could not be an exception. Lolz. My house-mates knows I'm a donut-holic. Haha. :P

   Didn't slept the whole night yesterday only until after Sahur and Subuh. Time flew, as I was chatting with those night-owls friends of mine on FB. Only managed to get 3 hours of sleep and the consequences of that? Getting myself sick. Feeling feverish right now. Duh. :(

   Non-stop consumption of chocolates yesterday night, as I was a bit stressed out on an issue in my head. Plus, I've workloads to settle by the end of this weekend. Lab reports, and Bio test is next Monday. Gosh. I didn't even touch the newly photocopied Bio notes, and Mrs. Tanu is giving me headache most of the time in lectures. All this adds up to my stress level, making me even tension. Duhhh. =S!

Breaking Free.

Breaking free of myself. Trying to change my perception, my attitude, my behaviour towards LiFe, in this holy month of Ramadhan. Insya-Allah. I'll try my best in changing towards the better. Repenting to my mistakes. Sorry to all of you, if I've ever made any mistake, with or without my consciousness. Forgive me, people, mum, dad. And most importantly, forgive me Allah. Felt guilty to God that I've behave inappropriately throughout my life so far, been stubborn, and ignorant of the presence of God. :'(

   Why am I so EMO today? I don't exactly know too. Hmmm. Perhaps, sometimes ideas of repenting do come into our heads and make us think about what is our purpose of living on this planet called - the Earth. Self-reflection of life is essential to me. Every time things happen, it made me think what went wrong, and where? After all, it all relates back to our way of living our lives. My point of view on life is simple: We are all here living for the afterlife, Akhirat! ;D

   I guess, the end of the world is very near. So, people. Let's use the barakah in this holy month of Ramadhan, to transform ourselves, to be a better Muslim. Insya-Allah. Amin. :)

Wee~~~! Count Down. =D

Transnasional! Hee. ;D

Yeay! Finally, I bought the tickets back to KL this 26th of August, earlier in the evening today at Butterworth. Can't wait for Thursday to come. =DDD! I'm  very, deeply HOMESICK, although I've just stayed here for 2 weeks. You should understand, as I've never been staying away from KL for such a long period. Never experienced boarding school's life, and *wosh* I was dumped here in Kepala Batas, Penang, far away from the big city of KL. Aish. =.=

   Perhaps, this is an experience I should undergo, before, Insya-Allah, going to a further place, far away from my birth-country, called - Ireland. Hohoho. Insya-Allah. I'm working on it. Working hard to secure a place in NUIG and UCC! ;D

   Anyway. I want to go back to PASUM and AT LEAST sleepover for a NIGHT, in my previous room. Hehehe. Hope my dad allows me too. Praying hard he would. Because I miss my friends in PASUM! Miss them so badly. ;)))

   Hari Raya Aidilfitri is soon to be here. Planning on buying a whole lot of new stuffs. So, now I would have to have a budget and follow it, in order to save for the Raya shoppings in KL. Hehe. ;P

Friendship are to be kept forever in our hearts.

People come and go in and out of your life. We meet, make new friends almost everyday in our life, but those old ones would never be forgotten. I would never ever forget those sweet moments in UM, and those bitter ones too. Haha. xP! I miss The Weekenders and my study gang! :'(

   Finally, I'm heading back to KL next week! 5 days off. Yeay! This home-sickness is affecting me badly here in Penang. Duh. I want to go back! And I wish this programme would end faster. Let time fly! Seriously, I'm here 2 weeks already, but still, I dislike this dead town so much. :S! Apart from the Kompleks Kailan, where there are shops to shop for stuffs, and Penang Island, there is nothing much in Penang.

      Owh yea. Good luck to Asasians in Midsem test! Insya-Allah, I'll pray for you all. ;D

This rainbow is captured and dedicated to all my PASUM pals. I miss you all! ;D

4th day in ACMS, Penang. ;)

I was really college-sick up to the 3rd day. Duhhh. Who won't be, if you've received such a short notice and had to leave your friends just like THAT? Plus, I've never been out of KL, and stayed in a hostel far away from home, what more PENANG??? I guess, this is one of the learning curves in life that I'll have to learn starting from now on. No more spoon-feeding, no more mama's & papa's daughter here in Penang. I'll learn to be on my own, independent. ;D

   I promise myself, Insya-Allah, I'll hit my 4.0 target here and do my very best in getting into either UCC or NUIG. Insya-Allah, I'll leave this dead town Kepala Batas, Penang. Argh. >.

   At the same time, I'm grateful that I've receive a good offer, a challenging one of course, maybe because it's new. Duhhh. Fine. Fine. Alhamdulillah anyway. :)

   By the way, I'm staying in a town-house (a 2 storey house, but each storey has its own doors.), I'm in the 2nd storey!, with 3 rooms. My housemates are niceeeee. Thank God. ;D Come to 1-15-B, Lorong Indera Putera 4, Putra Villas, Bertam, 13200 Kepala Batas, Pulau Pinang and you'll find me! Hehe. I travel to college by bus, the shuttle bus provided by ACMS. This is because our college is 6km+ away from the hostel. And I have to walk alot here, because the shoplots are quite far away from the hostel. But, nah nevermind. I LOVE WALKING! Ehehe. :P

   What I can say for now is, I'm still trying to cope and fit into this new environment. Insya-Allah I'll get use to it soon. Although, deep inside my heart, I'm still missing PASUM. Hmmm. :-/ Changes are needed sometime, so, I'm willing to make a change to my life. Insya-Allah it'll go right, and it's the best way for me to achieve my ambition of being an ENT specialist. I've to forget about Engineering, I guess. But, But, But! I still am an F1 FREAK! =D That fact would not change forever! I love F1!

   Okay. Last words before I get ready to class today. Selamat berpuasa! Don't miss terawih, guys! It's a holy month, so let's maximize our ibadah, let's get closer to Allah, the One and Only God, Esa. ;DDD

To my PASUM friends, I miss you all! I'll come back soon and visit you, don't you all worry. ;)))

I'm leaving. I'm already missing my friends.

No IB, but I've got MARA's offer to ACMS-Ireland programme in ACMS, Kepala Batas, Penang. Going to do 1 year of Pre-Medic in Penang, and then Insya-Allah, flying to Ireland for 2.5 years, next coming back to do my practical 2.5years in Malaysia. It's sad to leave my friends in PASUM. Hmmm. :'(

   The news came so sudden, that I had to keep it to only a few friends on Thursday and only tell my close friends on Friday night, which is yesterday. I didn't want them to be sad! Aish. =.='''

   Going to Penang, Insya-Allah tomorrow. Registering on Monday. That's freaking fast, right? Haiz. I wish I could have a couple more of weeks to spend with my beloved friends. Nevermind! I promise I'll visit you all as soon as I get back home! Yesh! Penang is far! I'll definitely be very very very HOMESICK! This is when I have to learn to cope with homesickness... @.@!

   My parents will settle all the redrawing of PASUM's stuff on the weekdays. I have to fill up forms and prepare a lot of documents right now.

   Goodbye, good luck friends! Wish me luck on getting 4.0 flat in order for me to study abroad in Ireland. Insya-Allah. ;D

I WILL MISS YOU ALL! THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE WHEN I NEEDED A FRIEND! I APPRECIATE OUR FRIENDSHIP VERY MUCH! <3

Yasmin & Shy! ;D

Yasmin : The candid fweak. ;P

Shy : The cute Mrs. Bieber, having my specs on! Ahaha.

Sean, Me and Sufi. :D

Me & My bestie : Yasmin! Awwwh. :')

Vandalism in Lecture Hall. :P

Vandalism.

Sufi =D

Negotiation failed! >.<'''

The outcome of the meeting? Negative PASUM. They are placing me either in KMBanting or KMSeremban to do IB (International Baccalaureate). I'm freaking SAD! :'[ So, next week will most probably be my last week in PASUM. I'll cherish every moment, every second I spend next week with my friends. I'll spend it to the utmost! ;D!

   I'm still trying to convince my parents to not let me leave PASUM. I want to reject that offer so badly. Argh! But, the fact is, I couldn't psycho them! Aish! IB is like, the hardest programme ever, man! Shyte, I have to work my ass off, double than I'm working on Asasi right now! It's actually an all rounder-programme, which includes both activities and academics. I know it's GOOD, but I am not confident enough that I'll pull through it. =.='''

   Ya Allah, please show me the best pathway! If this is meant to be my future pathway, give me a sign please. If not, please let me reject it, and allow me to stay in PASUM? Pretty please, Ya Allah! Allahu Akhbar, You are the Almighty, You know what's best for everyone. Insya-Allah, I'll get the best from You, with Your will. :)

Sad or Happy?!

It's early in the morning, and I was woken up my a telephone conversation, between my mum and someone :X. Want to know the story behind it? Hmmm. Let's cut the story short okay?

   Why am I in this dilemma, between Sad and Happy? Let me tell you why. I'd most probably leave PASUM and my friends soon. This is a very very disheartening, sad news to share with you all. :'(! This is the reason why I texted you all yesterday, guys. I'm going for a meeting session with someone in MARA later today in the evening. I'll try my best to negotiate to stay at PASUM till the end of the programme. I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE YOU ALL, GUYS! Sobs :'(((  I've became so attached to my gang and PASUM, that I don't feel like leaving and when this news came about to me, I was damn depressed. :'(

   My first choice? Still Medicine. Then, followed by Engineering (I want to major in Mechanical Eng. so badly, all because of F1! :D), Dentistry (I don't know why it's AFTER Mech. Eng.) and finally, my favourite Economics! It's a bit weird to see my choice jumping about different fields. Hehe. :P

   Looking at the brighter side, I'm able to study overseas again, after my hope was crushed by JPA! Nah, never mind, at least I'm not bonded to the government and JPA! Duhhhh. :P But, the problem is, can I excel and not have the trouble of paying MARA back? This worries me much. :E! Another issue is, where would I want to go, which university, in which country? I'm searching for the resolution right now.

   Wish me luck guys! :D I know you all don't want to see me leave you all, I feel the same way too. But, this is my future. Everyone wants the best for their future, right? I'll try out my luck with MARA. :)

JB - Critical. ^.^

I'm freaking obsess with this song! Listen and read the lyrics carefully, and you will get it. :)))

There's a storm coming up
And I gotta prepare myself
'Cause this feeling is getting stronger everyday

Something's creeping inside
Everything is about to change
Gotta face the fact that I can't walk away

This is critical, I'm feeling helpless
So hysterical, this can't be healthy
I can't eat or sleep when you're not with me
Baby, you're the air I breathe
This is critical, yeahh
So stuck on you

Used to have everything figured out
But it's different now
When you came, you saw
You conquered my heart
It's your laugh and your smile
Wanna stay for a little while
I don't wanna go
I just want you in my arms

This is critical, I'm feeling helpless
So hysterical, this can't be healthy
I can't eat or sleep when you're not with me
Baby, you're the air I breathe
This is critical, yeahh
So stuck on you

Used to run and hide
Used to bend our love
But I can't escape this time,
Ohnooo...

This is critical, I'm feeling helpless
So hysterical, this can't be healthy
I can't eat or sleep when you're not with me
Baby, you're the air I breathe
This is critical, yeahh

Baby, it's so critical (critical)
It's so critical (critical, yeahh and I like it)
Baby, it's so critical (critical)
It's so critical (yeahh)
So stuck on you.
;D

Jonas, Jonas, Jonas.

Great! I've wasted half my day on the laptop. Downloading new songs, just to update to the laptop's playlist, because it's boring to hear old songs! Ahahax. As if it's my duty to update the playlist everytime I return home. Duhhh.

   Damn. I'm still stuck on Calculus and Physics! I hate it when I can't solve a thing. Heart-aching. It annoys me much! Owh, God. Please clear my brain, heart & soul and show me the way to solve those tutorial questions. Insya-Allah. PLEASEEEE! Haiz. =.='''!

   In the meantime, let's distract ourselves from workloads and listen to some new songs by Jonas Brothers! I recommend the following, from the newest JONAS LA album :

Invinsible

Hey You

Critical

   Be sure to listen to all of them, yea. Love JB! ^.^

Jonas Brothers'-madness is back in me!!!

Emo-ish! Nooo...

For the past few days, I've been so emotional, for some personal reasons. Argh. Let's get over it. I want to get my focus back and concentrate on my studies. 3 weeks to go, and *poof* there comes Mid-Sem Test! Time flies!!!

   This whole week is Mid-Sem break. So, I've to finish my homeworks in these few days. I'm planning of going for a movie or an ice-skate, only after that, I'd start revising and do some exercises. Hehe. :D

   I'm missing my fellow friends in college already! Aaahhh! *Hugs*!

Make It Right - Joe Jonas. @.@

You say you'll know when you really find the one
But it's hard to tell With the damage that's been done
But I'd like to say that it's your fault
But I know better
Cause I'm a fool to think you'll wait around forever

Maybe I Could have loved you
Maybe I could have shown
That I still do care about you
More than you could know
Don't say it's too, late to try
To make it right
To make it right

I didn't know, how good you were for me
Now it's clear, I've seen another we could be
And I know it's my fault, and I'm gonna treat you better
Cause if I had one wish, you'd be with me forever

Maybe I Could have loved you
Maybe I could have shown
That I still do care about you
More than you could know
Don't say it's too, late to try
To make it right

Is there something I could say
Show me how to break it down
So before you walk away
Take the time to turn around, listen to me now

Maybe I Could have loved you
Maybe I could have shown
That I still do care about you
More than you could know
Don't say it's too, late to try...

Maybe I Could have loved you
Maybe I could have shown
That I still do care about you
More than you could know
Don't say it's too, late to try
To make it right
To make it right
To make it right
Gonna make it right... Yeah.

This song is dedicated to my friends! Miss you all! :DDD!

Gosh!

I'm super-duper-triper-quadraper EXHAUSTED! Rushing to finish up my tutorial works and stuff. Argh. I'm getting no adequate sleep each and everyday, which will result in losing focus in lectures. Duhhh. What can I do? I have to make sure or like what a friend of mine said, I WILL GET 4.0 FLAT, Insya-Allah with Allah's will! (credits to Sufi :D)

   Went to KLCC with The Weekenders + 2 new friends yesterday. An adventurous journey from UM to KLCC, with 3 bus transits, me being the tour guider and the night ended with us rushing, running madly, to catch the last Putra train back to UM. Hahax. Both 9 Temples : Death Ghost and Eclipse was boring! I did something illegal yesterday. I switched cinema without anyone noticing! Ahahax. :P!

These pictures was taken at the 12th RC's lakeside. -The Weekenders-

   Throughout this week, I've learnt a little bit more about what life is all about. It had widen my thoughts and perception on Life. Life is not that hard to live, anyway. All we gotta do is do what's best for our afterlife (akhirat).

   Action speaks louder than words. People may say bad things behind your back, but you know best about yourself, and your friends know who you are. So, stop bitching about others and don't judge a book by its cover. Get to know that particular person first, before you start to judge them. Everyone isn't perfect. So, we have to accept them the way they are, don't try to correct them or try to "help" change their attitude. It's human nature to not be liked by everyone. In fact, it's impossible to make everybody to like you the way you are. To me, people's perception is not that important afterall. What's more important is, you know and understand yourself. Plus, Allah understands you. =D!

Weekends. -.-

Normally, back then when I was still in my secondary school, weekends are the days where I have my break, time out of homework loads (but not on the SPM month). Now, it seems so vulnerable. Weekends are as equal to the weekdays. Perhaps, more hectic than weekdays. Why do I say so???

   Hmmph. =.='''! At the end of every week, there will always be unfinished tutorials, reports, and revisions to be completed. There will never be a week without stuffs to complete, infinite, never ending here in PASUM. Plus, I'm facing a huge problem of digesting and memorizing FQAH0112 (the taxonomy part of REDO in biology). Haiz. Can you imagine? We have a short test for biology every week, and this so-called continuous learning is adding extra pressure on my lovely brain. Lolz. That is only biology. How about the rest? Argh! XE!

   Straining of the brain is in progress... That's why I need weekends to be my period of relaxation. A time for me to release my tensions and to take a time off the books and homework. I've tried swimming, but it made little effect. I need other methods to release these pressures!

   Another issue is not having enough sleep and rest. Sometimes, I face fatigue situations, where I have to rush to places with only an hour's break. Tiredness overwhelmed as I get back to my room. And sometimes, I could not even afford to take a nap, with the workloads I have in mind. It is that BAD! What could I do but not to bear these situations? Insya-Allah, with the help from Allah, I can, CAN, go through this course smoothly and achieve my target of 4.0 flat in both semesters. Insya-Allah! =D

   In this meantime, I will try to not add too much pressure on myself. I'm scared that I will have a nervous breakdown. :S! Insya-Allah, no! Thank God, I have my group of friends who accompanies me and were wiling to lend their ears to me. Giving me some useful advices. Thanks guys! Love you all <3!!! ;DDD

I'm "a bit" homesick. Ahahax. XP!

As I've never been away from home more than 3 days (the camps in school) throughout my whole life before, so this is the first experience I had so far, staying in a university hostel (which is not too far from home anyway, Duhhh!). Up to date, hmm, what I can conclude is, I've learnt a lot in being MORE independent, because I do think I am already independent even before I entered PASUM. Hehe. xP!

   I've met tons of new friends, which I sometimes can't remember their names (oops, sorry guys!). And also, the most important thing now is, I've a group or a gang, called the "Weekenders",which consists of 4 Hayat students (including me!). Ahahax. Nothing much. It's just that we click together and often go almost anywhere together. Hee. =D It's great to have clicks this fast. Problems could be shared, and resolved in a shorter time, especially our TUTORIAL homeworks!

   Lectures, Practicals and Tutorial classes. Sigh. =.='''! 8am - 5pm daily. What a hectic life I have now. But, I rather like the situation now, compared to that period of time where I stayed home, and did nothing. Hahax. Hectic Life is absolutely better than a plain Boring Life. I love being busy and occupied with work or stuffs to do. So, Asasians, lets enjoy this hectic moment of our lives. We can only go through this kind of experience once, therefore, enjoy it and make use of it to the fullest, to enable us to get hold of our bright, shining future! Insya-Allah. ;)

   That's all for now. I have to get some rest and get up early everyday. May Allah bless our lives. Insya-Allah. :D