I Believe In You.

No, I've never seen the sky
As vanilla as tonight
And it's here I hold you close
When I finally close my eyes
And it never ever fails
The sun comes up, the story dies
And I don't know why

But baby, that's all I need
Is someone like you burnin' through me
Oh and it's never fair
The way that we meet and you disappear
No, it don't feel like sleep
When I'm this alive it's true
I believe in you, I believe in you, oh

It's so hard to give you up
But too easy to pretend
Like the way the leaves would fall
Tell the both of us would end
What to tell my friends

When baby, that's all I need
Is someone like you burnin' through me
Oh and it's never fair
The way that we meet and you disappear
No, it don't feel like sleep
When I'm this alive, it's true
I believe in you, I believe in you, oh yeah

What you want isn't what you get
Isn't what you want isn't what you get
What you want isn't what you get
Isn't what you want isn't what you get

I believe in you
What you want isn't what you get
Isn't what you want isn't what you get
I believe in you
What you want isn't what you get
Isn't what you want isn't what you get

'Cause baby, that's all I need
Is someone like you burnin' through me
Oh and it's never fair
The way that me meet and you disappear

Oh and it's oh' so real
The way that we talk, the way that you feel
Oh and I want to scream
But I know the fault lies with me

'Cause I believe in you, hey
I believe in you, I believe in you, oh, oh, oh, oh

Trust & Believe.

Getting the trust and believe from the people around you isn't an easy job. In fact, some of us, don't even completely believe in ourselves! Low levels of self-esteem and self-confidence adds on to make this matter worst. I used to have low confidence levels, but thanks to my dad, I'm now confident enough of myself. Although, sometimes I know I'm a bit over-confident of myself. Okay. That's EGO you are talking about. Haha.

   Yes, I admit that I have some trust issues in people. Still, I'm trying my best to put a little bit more of trust in others. Why should we not trust people completely? Hmm. In my point of view, these are the reasons :

• You'll might just get a little unlucky, and your trust is betrayed by someone close enough to you, for example: your Best Friend?? Lolz.
• You'll get depressed by the betrayal.
• You'll lose focus on the things you are doing, example : Studies, Work?
• You'll feel worthless. No one wants to be your friend. Bla, bla, bla...
• To those who are a little bit extreme, they would give up on life. *Ridiculous thing to be ever done!*

   Thus, the moral of the story is, to NOT TRUST PEOPLE EASILY AND COMPLETELY!

P/S : I'm not bringing bad influence to people, this is just something I've gained from my experience so far. Hee. No offence to anyone. :)

It's Not Too Late.

Here I am
Feels like the walls are closing in
Once again it's time to face it and be strong
I wanna do the right thing now
I know it's up to me some how
I've lost my way

If I could take it all back I would now
I never meant to let you all down
And now I've got to try to turn it all around
And figure out how to fix this
I know there's a way so I promise
I'm gonna clean up this mess I made
Maybe It's not to late
Maybe it's not to late oh

So I'll take a stand
Even though it's complicated
If I can I wanna change the way I've made it
I gotta do the right thing now
I know it's up to me some how
I'll find my way

If I could take it all back I would now
I never meant to let you all down
And now I've got to try to turn it all around
And figure out how to fix this
I know there's a way so I promise
I'm gonna clean up the mess I made
Maybe It's not to late

I'm gonna find the strength
To be the one who that holds it all together
Show you that I'm sorry
But I know that we can make it better

If I could take it all back I would now
I never meant to let you all down
And now I've got to try to turn it all around
And figure out how to fix this
I know there's a way so I promise
I'm gonna clean up the mess I made
Maybe It's not to late

I never meant to let you all down
Now I've got to try to turn it all around
And figure out how to fix this
I know there's a way so I promise
I'm gonna clean up this mess I made
Maybe It's not to late
Maybe it's not to late oh yeah

AGAIN, back in Penang. =.=

AGAIN. AGAIN. And AGAIN. I'll be away from home for at least another 6 weeks. Back in Penang. Hmm. I guess, I'll just have to cope and adapt to these kinda situations. As a preparation to fly to Ireland, perhaps? Insya-Allah. :)

   Yes, Yes, YES! I know I have to be grateful to God. Alhamdulillah. I'm just getting used to this new "away-from-home" thingy. So, give me a little more time, I'll be just fine. :D

   Now, what's more important is, to manage my finance and cut down on my shopaholic-ness. And also, I'm going for a healthy DIET! Hohoho. It's not that I'm not eating, just to stay healthy and reduce those junk food consumptions. Hee. Chocolates? Hurm. I think I'll reduce you in my diet. Ahaha. "Reduce". xP Been finding for a weighing machine the whole week, but I didn't managed to find one, not a single one. Haha. Perhaps God doesn't want me to know how "Heavy" I am now. Ahaha. xP I'm not FAT, by the way! Duhhh. Just chubbier. CUTER! :PPP

You're My Favorite Song. ;)

Words don't come easy
Without a melody
I'm always thinking
In terms of do-re-mi
I should be hiking, swimming
Laughing with you
Instead, I'm all out of tune

But what you don't know
You lift me off the ground
You're inspiration
You helped me find my sound
Just like a baseline in half-time
You hold down the groove
That's why I'm counting on you

And if I heard you on the radio
I'd never want to change a single note
It's what I'm trying to say all along
You're my favorite song

I'm in a session, writing tracks
You got another class to teach
And then rehearsal with the band
You're always one step out of reach
I'm looking for some harmony with you
It comes so naturally
You help me find the right key

And when I hear you on the radio
I never want to change a single note
It's what I tried to say all along
You're my favorite song
My favorite song

And when I hear you on the radio
I never want to change a single note
It's what I tried to say all along
You're my favorite song
You're my favorite song

Seb the Ultimate F1 Champion! ;DDD

YESSSS! Finally. Seb won the Abu Dhabi GP, and also the 2010 F1 Championship! After being the first runner up last year, SEBASTIAN VETTEL aka Seb won this year's! Yeaaaaayyyyyy! ;))) Thank you for NOT putting my trust and franticness of you to waste. Love you Seb! Hahahaha. :D

   23 years old, and he's the youngest F1 driver ever to win a championship. Lewis' record was broken, as Seb is 6 months younger than Lewis. Heee. I'm proud of Seb!!! Way to go RedBull, congratulations! Alonso came in second and Webber third. Pity that Alonso didn't perform well yesterday. *Jgn marah SasJoe* Hehehe. :P

   Yes, I'm an official F1 Freak. Who says a girl can't be one? Weird, I know. I get that weird comments from almost everyone. So, what? I am me. Duhhh. I'm one in a million! Ahaha. I feel very special right now. xP Nahhh. Just joking. ;P Formula 1 is a High Class sports. Unlike football! Duhhh. :PPP

Never Say U Can't - Bruno Mars.

Oh (4x)

When I was just a little boy
Barely strong enough to stand
I could always count on him
Oh

He thought me everything I know
And ’till this day it shows
He was more than just a friend (Ah ah ah)

There were so many times I would doubt myself
But his words were always there to help

How would it be?
Where I am?
If my father didn’t tell me
To never say I can’t

He’d carry me
And never let me fall
Oh and the only thing he asked
Right before he passed
Was to never say you can’t

Oh
Never say you can’t
Oh oh oh Oh

So when last rain begins to fall
And you’re out there on your own
And you can’t see a thing
No no no

Just find a voice that understands
For me it was my old man
Taught me to say the words I can
Oh

There were so many times I would doubt myself
But his words were always there to help

How would it be?

Where I am?
If my father didn’t tell me
To never say I can’t

He’d carry me
And never let me fall
Oh and the only thing he asked
Right before he passed
Was to never say you can’t

Everything he taught me would stay with me forever
No I won’t forget a thing
Oh because of dad I now know myself better
And I hope I can do for him what he did for me

How would it be?
Where I am?
If my father didn’t tell me
To never say I can’t

He’d carry me
And never let me fall
Oh and the only thing he asked
Right before he passed
Was to never say you can’t

Oh
Never say you can’t
Oh
Never say you can’t

Sometimes.

Sometimes. Often. Constantly.

   We have to sometimes be a little selfish, prioritize ourself above the others. Let others call you selfish, just let them be. What's more important is, at least, you have your own time, attention and thoughts for yourself. I am me. And I'm just being me. Criticize me as you wish, I don't really care anymore. Accept me as I am. NEVER try to change me. Because I'm one stubborn girl. Probably, the most stubborn girl in the world. Can't stand the way I act and my attitude?? Back off! Duhhh. x|

Exhausting week! =$

Tired. Tired. Tired.

   This entire week was totally exhausting! I don't exactly know why, but it was really tiring! Probably because of the huge amount of workload I've received within this week. =S Argh! Don't let me get started on the assignments. I feel like going back to PASUM already. Although there's tons of tutorials to work out on, I felt happy to finish it up. =( But not here.

   Okay. Lately, I sleep early, eat alot, and fb-ed less. There's some good and bad side of that. Haha. Sleeping early, and less amount of time spent on fb arel good achievements. But, eating a lot is really NOT ME! WTHeck man. What happened to me lately?! I'm not sure either what has got into me, after I've returned here in KB from the Deepavali holidays. I've gain much weight I think for the past few months. Blame it on the pressures and chocolatesssss! Aha. :P

Life isn't THAT Simple.

Simplicity is SIMPLE. But LIFE isn't just that SIMPLE.

   Yeah, I know, I'm just 18. I don't know what's the real meaning of life yet. I don't really know how awful the world is outside there, yet! At least, I've tasted a bit of it already, during these 18 years of living. =)

   Sometimes, you just can't figure out what's best for yourself, until you've gone through those wrong roads. Life is to learn. To learn from mistakes and trying best not to repeat it. But, of course, if there's someone to guide you, i.e. your parents, you will most probably never go through the wrong, learning pathway. Haaa. Neither it's a bad thing, nor a good one. It has its own pros and cons. Hee.

P/S : I'm crapping here. Just ignore this post, if you are annoyed by it. Aha! ;P

Sorry bloggie! Hee. =D

Sorry for not updating you, my baby bloggie. Haha. Apparently, I was a little busy back in KL. And now, since I'm back here in KB, I can update you often! Yeay! Hehe.

   I had fun during the 3 short-day-break in KL. Friday, Saturday, Sunday. All filled with great moments, spent with family and friends. =) Those 3 days had really made me don't wanna return to this place. Haa. :P But, I have NO CHOICE! I need to study and stay here for the next 7 months. Nevermind, at least, I have great friends here to accompany me. :)

   F1 UPDATES : Seb had finally won, after a disappointing race ending in Korean GP last 2 weeks. Yeay! Superb 1-2 finish! Webber came in second, and were followed by Alonso, Lewis and the otherssss. Haha. Redbull on top of the constructors' standings and Seb is nearing to the crown. Hee. =D
Thanks to Luscious Liz for not making any trouble today. Heeeeee. =D

It's NOVEMBER! =D

Time really does fly, huh? In just a blink of an eye, without realising, it's already the 1st of November of 2010. It is nearing the end of the year, yet, I think I've only just started my college life. 7 more months to go, and Insya-Allah, I will be on my way to Ireland to pursue Medicine. Wishing hard that I could get pass the interview and score higher than Band 7 in IELTS. =) Insya-Allah. Amin.

   October has ended. November is on its way, just beginning. Wishing for superb days and weeks ahead. Insya-Allah. Hoping that I could reduce my shopaholic-ness as soon as I get back in KL. Aha! 3 more days to go. Can't bear it anymore. I'm heading back HOME!!! Yeay! Huhu. ;)

   I've calculated approximately, and apparently, I've been away from home for more than 6 weeks already! Gosh. I wonder how crazy will I be when I get back home?? Ahaha. xD The level of homesickness is already at stake. If I were to stay here, in this boring and dull place called PV, for another weekend, I'll totally lose my focus on my studies. I need to get back to at least, recharge and rejuvenate my mind from all these boring-ness here. It's darn important dude.

   Mondays are heaven to my Pre-Med group, Group E. This is the third consecutive week that we aren't having our labs and the combined Maths class starts at 5pm and ends at 7pm. It's kinda boring to wait for the class to start late, tragic, but what could we do, rather than to wait patiently? Duhhh. Honestly, I hate this kinda schedule. It's time wastage! But, I guess this is the way how private institutions are run. Let it be.

P/S : I've deactivated my Fb account. Only for a few days. Don't you worry. I've got my personal reasons. Try not to ask, okie? Thx. =)

Personality Test. =)

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education :
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.



Here is the analysis:
- You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

- You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

- You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

- Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

- Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Personality Love Style :

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

P/S : Quite a number of them are true about me. Hee. =D
Try the test at : www.quizbox.com

Important Tips. (Credits to Imah) =D

ARE YOU DAMAGING YOURSELF  ?

BRAIN DAMAGING HABITS : 1. No Breakfast.  People who do not take breakfast are going to have a lower blood sugar level. This leads to an insufficient supply of nutrients to the brain causing brain degeneration. 2. Overeating.  It causes hardening of the brain arteries, leading to a decrease in mental power.  3. Smoking  It causes multiple brain shrinkage and may lead to Alzheimer disease. 4. High Sugar consumption.  Too much sugar will interrupt the absorption of proteins and nutrients causing malnutrition and may interfere with brain development. 5. Air Pollution.  The brain is the largest oxygen consumer in our 20 body. Inhaling polluted air decreases the supply of oxygen to the brain, bringing about a decrease in brain efficiency.  6. Sleep Deprivation.  Sleep allows our brain to rest... Long term deprivation from sleep will accelerate the death of brain cells. 7. Head covered while sleeping.  Sleeping with the head covered increases the concentration of carbon dioxide and decrease concentration of oxygen that may lead to brain damaging effects.  8. Working your brain during illness.  Working hard or studying with sickness may lead to a decrease in effectiveness of the brain as well as damage the brain.  9. Lacking in stimulating thoughts.  Thinking is the best way to train our brain, lacking in brain stimulation thoughts may cause brain shrinkage.  10. Talking Rarely. Intellectual conversations will promote the efficiency of the brain. MAIN CAUSES OF LIVER DAMAGE : 1. Sleeping too late and waking up too late are main cause.  2. Not urinating in the morning.  3. Too much eating. 4. Skipping breakfast.   5. Consuming too much medication. 6. Consuming too much preservatives, additives, food colouring, and artificial sweetener. 7. Consuming unhealthycooking oil.  As much as possible reduce cooking oil when frying, which includes even the best cooking oils like olive oil. Do not consume fried foods when you are tired, except if the body is very fit.  8. Consuming raw (overly done) foods also add to the burden of liver.  Veggies should be eaten raw or cooked 3-5 parts. Fried veggies should be finished in one sitting, do not store. *We should prevent this without necessarily spending more. We just have to adopt a good daily lifestyle and eating habits. Maintaining good eating habits and time condition are very important for our bodies to absorb and get rid of unnecessary chemicals according to 'schedule.' TOP 5 CANCER-CAUSING FOODS : 1. Hot Dogs.  Because they are high in nitrates, the Cancer Prevention Coalition advises that children eat no more than 12 hot dogs a month. If you can't live without hot dogs, buy those made withoutsodium nitrate.  2. Processed meats and Bacon  Also high in the same sodium nitrates found inhot dogs, bacon, and other processed meats raise the risk of heart disease. The saturated fat in bacon also contributes to cancer.  3. Doughnuts *Owh nooooo! Not Doughnuts! =.=* Doughnuts are cancer-causing double trouble. First, they are made with white flour, sugar, and hydrogenated oils, then fried at high temperatures. Doughnuts may be the worst food you can possibly eat to raise your risk of cancer.  4. French fries  Like doughnuts, French fries are made withhydrogenated oils and then fried at high temperatures. They also contain cancer- causing acryl amides which occur during the frying process. They should be called cancer fries, not French fries. 5. Chips, crackers, and cookies  All are usually made with white flour and sugar. Even the ones whose labels claim to be free of trans-fats generally contain small amounts of trans-fats. P/S : Hope these infos were helpful. =)

Why DOUBTS love me so much??!

I'm always surrounded by DOUBTS lately. What a LIFE, huh?

   I hate you DOUBTS! Please leave me. Forever. Don't ever come sneaking back into my brain. Clear you off my mind, forever! Grrh!

   Often this happen to me. Aish =.=! Let me live a happy life can you? Leave me alone! Duhhh. #.#

You gotta learn to LOVE & APPRECIATE your FAMILY!!!! =')

Well. As usual. I'm in my emoish mood. Blame the overwhelming homesickness and stress I'm having in me right now. ='((( HOMESICK!!! Argh. =S

   I've not been home for 1 month plus already. Never left home this long. Never were separated from home this far (Penang, Gosh?!). Thought I could handle it at first, now I realized that I'm not that tough, not that independent as I think I am. Yes it applies in UM, because PJ was practically only a few kilometres away from home??? Duhhh. Indeed, I'm still daddy and mummy's girl. I LOVE MY FAMILY!!! I love them more than anything. They are the most important thing in my LIFE apart from Allah, Rasulullah and Islam, and that will forever stay that way.

   I love mum, I love dad. I love my siblings! I love home. I love my cats! I LOVE MY FAMILY! Without them, and without Allah's will, I won't be me today. Alhamdulillah. I'm grateful of having this family. I won't want more. This life I have is perfect enough for me. Thank you God. =))) I will appreciate my family always. Always will. Forever. Insya-Allah. ^.^

   Now... I want to get back home fast! Let the time fly to next week please? I wanna go backkkkk. ='(

Long Distance. Bruno Mars.

P/S : Listen to this awesome song and enjoy the lyrics. ;)))

-NiL-

I'm freaking bored. I can't sleep. I've ran out of ideas, what to blog on. Hmm. What a great LIFE huh?

   These kinda boring days sometimes really get on my nerves. Often I feel I shouldn't had came here in Penang, accepting MARA's offer. Instead I should have stayed in PASUM, and continue my hard work there. At least I enjoy studying there with my friends. Duhhh. =.= But what to do? I was destined to be here. This is all the work of God. We could only plan, He work and decide on things. We are only humans, normal human beings. It's all in His hands. =) There must be a hikmah in every single thing we go through. Allah knows best. ;)

All the best, folks! ;)

Stressed Out.

Not gonna mention the reasonsssss. Let me keep it to myself. But, I'm freaking stressed out today. >.<'''

   Really need someone, in fact, anyone could do. To distract me from all these problems. Please, anybody??? Volunteers needed here. Psychologist needed. Dr. Psychologist, if you see this, please respond okie? Haaa. Argh! =.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=!

Boring Sunday. =/

Boredom arise. I dislike living here in PV during weekends, especially on Sundays! Argh. =.=

   There's practically NOTHING to do here. Aish. =S No activities, no nothing. And plus, the greatest part of all is, it's freaking HOTTT here! It didn't rained for almost a week already, and we are perspiring like Hell. Gosh!!!

   I'm HOMESICK! Please let me have a break please? I wana go back to KL! Homesickness reduces my spirit of studying. God.

GooD Luck Asasians. =D

Wishing my PASUM friends all the best in their Sem 1 Final Exam, which kicks off tomorrow! ;D

   Missing you all very badly. ;(