Don't Want An ENDING - Sam Tsui

I don't wanna fall out
But we're all out of time
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
In one day
No way you'll be mine
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)

Ooohhh...

My heart is running on empty
One more day and then we go
Yeah, the time goes on now
Don't ask me how
I don't know
You'll be home tomorrow
About a thousand miles too far away? 
Say you won't forget and i'll be okay

At least tonight
It's just you and me and honestly
That's everything i need

I don't wanna fall out
But we're all out of time
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
In one day
No way you'll be mine
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)

Tonight's the countdown
'Till the day we're not around
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
And you're gone
And we're on with our lives
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
I don't want an ending

Don't want an ending...

The days turn to hours
And it’s just a moment before they go
I’m scared to say goodbye,
‘Cause what’s after that?
I don’t know.

As the years look past us
If we lose track,
Or lose the fight,

I will search forever
To find a way back..

To tonight
Where it's just you and me and honestly
That's everything I need

I don't wanna fall out
But we're all out of time
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
In one day
No way you'll be mine
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)

Tonight's the countdown
'Til the day we're not around
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
And you're gone
And we're on with our lives
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
I don't want an ending

We said "see ya later"
But I know there's no way we're
Around here again (yeah)
And every until next time
Feels like one bad punch line
And I don't want that again

I don't wanna fall out
But we're all out of time
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
In one day
No way you'll be mine
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)

I don't wanna fall out
But we're all out of time
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
In one day
No way you'll be mine
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)

Tonight's the countdown
'Til the day we're not around

(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
And you're gone
And we're on with our lives
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
(Noo) I
Don't want an ending
(All out of time)
Don't want an ending
Don't want an ending


P/S : ='(

Ya Allah.

Astaghfirullah. Oh Allah, please give me some strength. Please??? I need much of that to live life free of tensions and stress. So, right now. I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeddd SOME STRENGTH! ='(((

   Argh! Why am I acting like a kid!? Grow up Aisha! Grow up! Think maturely, be OPTIMISTIC! =.=

P/S : Dah janji tak nak emo, tpi I can't hold back these tears. ='(

IDK.

I've twisted and turned in bed, here I am, got out of bed and blogging in the middle of the night. I can't sleep! Adoi. =.='''

   Unappreciated. Who am I, right? Whatever! I need to move on! Duhhh. Exam is the most important thing of all, right now! So, I don't care about other stuffs. PRIORTIES AISHA PRIORITIES! (credit to Suf, Thanks bro! =D) I'll FOCUS on my dreams. Hell yeah, I will! Sorry, but I have to forget about you, feelings! Haa. Goodluck, peeps! =)

Finally!

THE END!

The thing I HATE the MOST!!!

People JUDGING me! Duhhh.

   I'm not gonna talk about what people had said about me, it'll just add to my tension. So, I'll just leave it to them to say whatever they like to! Duhhh. Nobody's PERFECT!!!

   Yes, of course I'm pissed off! This has not been only a few days, or a few weeks, it had been going on for months. And now, I'm really really really pissed off! Maybe I've been patient all this while, keeping silence after hearing those judgement made on me, but now, right now, I can't really seem to hold back my anger any longer! Argh.

   I HATE PEOPLE JUDGING ME! Why do you need to judge people so much? The main reason is because you dislike the way people are, because they are not the same as you? And you can't accept the fact that sometimes the difference are so huge! So, what do you expect? Everyone to have the same personality as you, and that is what you call as "NORMAL"??? Duhhh. That's just plain CRAP! Nobody can have the same life, the same experience, the same idea, the same everyday life! So, nobody could understand me well enough, to even judge me! So, just back off! I hate these kinda people.

   Yeah, maybe sometimes or most of the time I'm not doing the right thing, but do you have to show me what I should really do, your way, and force me into it??? No! I appreciate advices very much, but not INSTRUCTIONS! I am big and matured enough to think of what's good and what's bad for every action I've made and I'll make. You are not my dad nor you are my mum. So, stop it! Fine???!

   This entry is very general, and I'm not directing it specifically to anyone. It's to everyone whom may had judge me and back-bite about me. So, think about what you've done, kids! It annoys me much! =.=

P/S : This is blogged based on my current anger, that I couldn't express elsewhere. So, I figured out to write, as the best way to release it all AWAY! =S! I'll chill. Don't worry much.

Duhhh. =(

I'm super-duper-truper tired! *is there such word as truper?* Haha. Whatever!!! There are extra classes tomorrow, and I'm sure I'll be EXTRA tired. Aishhh. =.=

   Stressed out!!! Arghhhhh. This whole week, I've been sleeping early and for long hours, but non of it was a REM sleep, unfortunately! This is one of the signs of stress faced by a person, less REM hours and less dreams. Duhhh. I've tried a lot of things to avoid over-sleeping, but non did worked out well! Caffeines don't work anymore, as I've drank too much of it for the past months and my caffeine tolerance has increased ever since. Haaa.

   Never mind. I better get some good rest, before those HECTIC, RESTLESS week of exam nights start in 2 weeks' time! Okay. I need to get some rest right now. Class starts early tomorrow. Good luck and goodnight, peeps! Wish me a whole lotta luck! ;)

Exhausted. Satisfied. Inspiring.

This week had been tiring so far! Arghhhhhhhh. =.='''

   Finals are just 2 weeks away, I'm officially STRESSED OUT to the MAX! Surrounded by assignments, revisions to be done, and etc etc etc. I'm freaking exhausted lah weh! Feeling restless. Today was super-tiring, I don't know why. =(

   Did my speaking test with Mr. B in the morning, and thank God it was satisfying. He gave me good feedbacks. Thanks Mr. B! I'll keep it up. =) And today I met a very very inspiring doctor at the clinic. He gave us some good advice on our future of being a good and TOUGH medical practitioner. Insya-Allah, I'll pick those advice up and apply it in the future doc! I don't want to just be a doctor with a "Dr." in front of my name, I want to be a good and responsible doctor in the future. Insya-Allah. Amin. ;)

Owh God. =S

I'm JIWANGGGG! Adoi! =.='''
Currently addicted to this song. Super awesome-great-nice soooooong! ;D

Hijau Daun - Suara Ku Berharap

P/S : I don't know what had suddenly struck me. LOLZ.

Reviews on me so far. =)

Thanks peeps for giving me some feedback of me. I appreciate it much. ;) So, below is the "Describe Me" game posts. All of these will roughly give you a picture of how I am to people. =)

I know laaaaaaaaaaa!

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! =E!

   Yes, fb is addictive. Yes, I know that! But, it's not like I don't study at all, and spend my entire day on fb! Duhhh. I am big enough to know how to manage and organize my time for my studies and leisure. Maybe I spent too much time of my time on fb, but at least I've made sure that I've finish my assignments and stuff. Please........ Let me organize my own life. A piece of advice is enough and perhaps some motivating, uplifting words to my spirit. Owh God. Please let me live my own life. Argh. I'm no daddy's girl anymore laaa. Please?!

   I can handle it. Don't you worry. I promise I'll deliver my best in my studies. And I'll work my ass off for Ireland. Okay, dad??? Thanks. =)

Realized.

After getting deeply involved in the "describing me" game on fb, I've finally realized how people view me as. Their feedbacks had really made me realized that I am someone important to someone in this world too! Haaaaa. =')

   Thanks friends, for giving me such positive feedbacks! I really appreciate it. Thanks! All that has really made me think of how WONDERFUL LIFE has been to me so far! Weeeeeeeeee. I've promise myself to not be in Emoish state anymore. That is my new year RESOLUTION! Haaa. Leave it all behind. Let bygone be BYGONE! I want to be tougher, stronger and more matured, both physically and mentally. Insya-Allah. ;)

   I have such a good life. Why do I need to complaint so much? Aaaahhh. Stop complaining girl! You have been given a fair life by Allah. Alhamdulillah. Be grateful. :D

STAY OPTIMISTIC

No matter what happens, I'll try to not let tears run down my cheeks that easily anymore.

Just SMILE! Wee. =)))

Cute! ;)

Motivational StickyNotes! Haa. ;)

This is currently at my desktop. =D

Tell Me Why.

I took a chance, I took a shot 
And you might think i'm bulletproof, but i'm not 
You took a swing, I took it hard 
And down here from the ground I see who you are 

I'm sick and tired of your attitude 
I'm feeling like I don't know you 
You tell me that you love me then you cut me down 
And I need you like a heartbeat 
But you know you got a mean streak 
Makes me run for cover when you're around 
And here's to you and your temper 
Yes, I remember what you said last night 
And I know that you see what you're doing to me 
Tell me why.. 

You could write a book on how to ruin someone's perfect day 
Well I get so confused and frustrated 
Forget what i'm trying to say, oh 

I'm sick and tired of your reasons 
I got no one to believe in 
You tell me that you want me, then push me around 
And I need you like a heartbeat 
But you know you got a mean streak 
Makes me run for cover when you're around 
Here's to you and your temper 
Yes, I remember what you said last night 
And I know that you see what you're doing to me 
Tell me why.. 

Why..do you have to make me feel small 
So you can feel whole inside 
Why..do you have to put down my dreams 
So you're the only thing on my mind 

I'm sick and tired of your attitude 
I'm feeling like I don't know you 
You tell me that you want me then cut me down 
I'm sick and tired of your reasons 
I've got no one to believe in 
You ask me for my love then you push me around 
Here's to you and your temper 
Yes, I remember what you said last night 
And I know that you see what you're doing to me 
Tell me why 
Why, tell me why 

I take a step back, let you go 
I told you i'm not bulletproof 
Now you know

Psycho. =S

I'm currently revising for my HBP test next Wednesday (Human Behaviour & Psychology). As I read on, I'm turning Psycho dude. A lot to memorize. Well, I can actually just understand it instead of memorizing all of it. But, I'm not the pink of health. ='(

   Flu and cough have somehow managed to find a way to get me infected. Awesome isn't it? HBP test and Physics testS are down the road. But, I am stubborn, I REFUSE to take any medicine. Let it cure naturally. Bad future Doctor huh?! I hate to swallow down pills and stuffs. Mainly because, I CAN'T SWALLOW DOWN PILLS! Ahaha. xP Want to know how pills get down into my throat?? I CHEW THEM! Haaaaa. Yucks! It's freaking bitter and yuckish! Haha. But, that's the only way to get pills down my throat dude. Haaa! :P

   I just am not in a very good condition right now. I have this mixed up kinda feeling and I really feel unimportant to the people around me. I don't see any importance of my existence anymore. Hurm. I need to go for a counselling. Duhhh. =S

   May Allah be always with me, through the hardship and sweetness of life in these coming years. Insya-Allah. =)

2011 babe! =)

The clock has finally struck past midnight, so it's NEW YEAR 2011! Goodbye 2010. Goodbye memories. =')

   Insya-Allah 2011 will be awesome! ;) Aminnnnnnnnnn. Hope so. =)))

Personal Development for Smart People.

While I was browsing through the net, I found this :
Personal Development for Smart People, by Steve Pavlina.

It lists the three core principles of personal development as Truth, Love and Power.
When you combine the principles, you get the secondary principles of personal development; Truth combined with Love gives you Oneness, Love and Power combine to give you Courage and Truth with Power gives you Authority. All together, the six principles combine to give you the seventh core principle of personal development: Intelligence.

Truth + Love = Oneness

Love + Power = Courage

Truth + Power = Authority

Truth + Love + Power + Oneness + Courage + Authority = INTELLIGENCE!

This kinda make sense to me.


P/S : Just some random thing I'd love to share. =)

Lonesome.

Have you ever felt lonely. Lonesome? Have you ever felt the whole world is just slipping away from you. Your friends, your family and so on.

   Sometimes, I just have this kinda feeling of being neglected, ignored and bla bla bla by people. I do not wish to get attention all the time. I'm not an attention seeker. Owh please! I just need someone to care, at least to ask, how am I doing. But, never mind. I'll just get use to this kinda feeling soon.

   I'm not that quite important in this world, right? Hmmm. Never mind! I'll just pretend I don't really care. =.=

P/S : I'm emotionally unstable again. The cause of this emo-ness? GASTRIC! Duhhh. Okay. My fault for not taking good care of my eating schedule. Fine. Fine. Blame it on me. -.-

Choosing Life.

Sometimes. We just don't get to choose what kind of Life we live. Life chooses us. =)

    I am already on my way, on learning to accept the new me. Trying to fit in very well to my newly adapted life. Trying to let go of my pasts. Yeah, it's hard indeed. That part of letting go is very very very tough. The toughest part of all.

   Often do I think of running away from these so called, Life-Enriching-Problems. But, as its name says it all, it's LIFE-ENRICHING! So, running away from it won't solve, nor will it clear the issues away. Running away are what cowards do. And I'm definitely not one! Duhhh.

   Recently, I've been hit by a few constant thoughts on myself. I, myself, had notice my drastic changes. My dramatic change in attitude, the way I communicate, people perception towards me, and the most important of all, is LAZINESSS. All the listed changes includes both the positive and negative turning points. Life is all about changing, right? Okay, I've changed!

   Yes, I do notice some of the people around me are starting to not like me. But, SO WHAT!? I am just changing into me, the new me. Perhaps some of you would have bad impressions on me, not liking the way I present myself, or the way I talk or, maybe my attitudes. Okay, let me tell you this. I can't satisfy every single one of you, I can't make everyone like me, but I've tried my best to be JUST ME! You have 3 choices :

1. Either to just accept me the way I am.

OR

2. You could try talking to me, try telling me what you THINK should be done to improve myself. I'm open enough to receive CONSTRUCTIVE criticism.

OR

3. You could just walk away from my life, ignoring me.

   Of all the 3 choices, I prefer the second choice. I am just being human, and no human in this world is as perfect as Rasulullah S.A.W.. So, there is still a lot of room for me to improve on myself. I'm just 18 years old, for God sake! There's still a loooooong way to go in Life. Insya-Allah. =)

P/S : I am really sorry to whoever I've unintentionally hurt. But, I just hate it when people bad-mouth about me. I JUST HATE BACK-STABBERS! Duhhh.

='(((

Hmmph. It's SUNDAY! I hate Sundays! I have to go back to Penangggggg. OMG! I wish I do not have to return to that place forever! Argh. =.='''

Awesome! ;)

I AM BACK IN KL! Huhuhuhu. I'm Homeeeeee! ;)

   Yes. I am super-duper-hyper happy today! Weee~! Went back to UM to meet my friends. Miss you all, bros and babes. =)

   Though I know I have to sometimes move on, but this attached kinda feeling isn't just going to go away just like that. Never mind. At least, I am happy with this kinda life. Life still goes on. But, there are things which you can't and won't really let go of in life. Hee.

   Let me just be me. I am fully satisfied with my current life. Alhamdulillah. Through the thick and thins so far, I've learnt a lot about life. Thank you to all of you! I appreciate every single thing that has happened to me. Every thing happened for a reason. Thanks. =D

Ich Liebe Mich.

Okay. Yes. I do love myself!

   There's a sense of selfishness in the above statement, yea I know. But, I just DO love myself. Me first. Yea yea I'm Selfish! Duhhh. :PPP

GREAT spirit, girl! (dedicated to Harishah!) =)

I respect you very much, girl! ;)
I can't imagine how you managed to overcome that big resistance in you to delete your fb account. I just can't seem to quite gather that much courage to delete my account. Huhuhu.

The very moment I saw this ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^, I'll just hit the "HOME" button back. I just can't leave facebook! Argh. Yeah, I admit it's very very very distracting. It constantly distract me out of my main focus right now - My Studies! But.... I have to have something that could DISTRACT me away from my tensions and stress. And fb is one of it. I know all this is not quite right, but still, I.... Hurm. =/

   Okay. I really need help right now. Or else, I'm turning psycho!!!

December's Ending.

Time had surely FLOWN! It's already the 18th of December. And the year is about to end soon. 2011 is just 2 weeks away. Gosh. Can I just be 18 forever and not grow up into adulthood??? I wanna be a TEENAGER forever! I wanna feel young and awesome forever! I wanna live this teenage dream forever! Ahaha. xD

   Anyways. After almost 3 weeks of not leaving this dead town of KB, I finally had the chance to leave the house and go for a SHOP in a MALL, today! Sunway Carnival Mall in Seberang Prai. (Apart from the Kailan Complex which isn't practically called a mall) Hahaha. At least I did get the chance to release some of my tensions and stress. And the most important of all is McDonald!!!

   Well. You see. There's seriously ZERO outlets of McD here in KB. KFC & Secret Recipe is the only famous fast food around this area. Plus, I DON'T HAVE A LICENCE & A CAR TO WANDER AROUND THIS AREA. Duhhh. So, you must understand the level of craziness and cravings I have for my favourite McD (since, ermm...The last time I was back in KL?? That was like, 4 weeks ago? Heh?!). Today, I finally had do away those cravings. I've finally got my SPRITE and my burger. Woohoo. It surely had elevated the spirit in me once again. Huhu. ;) Thank you McD! Ahaha. xP

   Okay. While I was enjoying my McD lunch, I did day dreamed a little. Owh, perhaps that's just some normal stuff I always randomly do all the time. Ahaha. What was going through my mind this evening? Let me tell you bits of it. =)

   Lately, I've been reading on a motivational book entitled "How to get from where you are, to where you want to be" by Jack Canfield. So far, I've read up to chapter 6. I'm kinda slow in finishing books. Forgive me.  Hee. =D So, what has this book got to do with my day dream?? Heh? Haha.

   After reading a few sections of the book, it had made me realize something. Something crucially important to me. To my life. I've notice that every bit of me had changed. My style. My attitude. My way of thinking. Just EVERYTHING about ME has changed. I'm not so sure it has changed for the better or worst. Because right now, I really can't really differentiate well between these two. Sometimes, I just feel that I don't understand myself well enough. And nobody does too. Duhhh.

   Besides that, I've learnt from that book that I have to get that INDEPENDENT AISHA backkkkk! I want that girl back. I don't want the "daddy girl Aisha" no more! Ishhhh. I constantly get this homesickness here in Penang. While back then in PASUM, I was not this critically homesick! Duhhh. Perhaps, you could say PJ and Ampang is only a few kilometres away, but still! I was more hardworking and focused there in PASUM. Not here, not right now. Argh!

   Hurm. I guess, a change has to take place, in order for us to evolve through life. To create an EVOLUTION of LIFE! ;) I'll just work my best on altering these few changes in me towards the better, perhaps. =)

P/S : This post is crappy long, dude! Haha. If you could manage finishing reading it, then you are one determined person. And one determined STALKER! Ahaha. xPPP Thank you for you determination dude. =)

Blog Changes. =)

New template and layout! Hee. It's time for a change anyway. =)))

New page added. A whole new fresh look! Yeay! Ahaha. :D

♥♥♥ Happy B'day, IMAH!!! ♥♥♥

Happy birthday, babe!
May Allah bless you throughout this LIFE!
May Allah give you barakah!
May Allah give you longevity and happiness in LIFE!
I love you!

♥♥♥You are the MOST lovable sister EVER!♥♥♥

P/S : I'll hand over your present to you as soon as I get back in KL! Hee. ;)

Lessons in LiFE!

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good. ♥

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. ♥

4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does. 

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree. ♥

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone. ♥

8. It's okay to get angry with God. He can take it. 

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile. ♥

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present. 

12. It's okay to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about. ♥

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it. ♥

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying. 

17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today. 

18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer. ♥

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special. ♥

22. Over-prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple. 

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you. ♥♥♥

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"

27. Always choose life. ♥♥♥

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time. ♥♥♥

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger. ♥

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.

38. Read the Quran. They cover every human emotion. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere. ♥

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back. ♥

41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now. ♥

42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved. ♥

44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need. ♥♥♥

45. The best is yet to come. 

46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up. 

47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind. ♥

48. If you don't ask, you don't get.

49. Yield. 

50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift. ♥♥♥

♥ A REAL FRIEND IS ONE WHO WALKS IN WHEN

THE REST OF THE WORLD WALKS OUT!!! ♥

Some inspirational story. (Credits to Nabil) =)

Read this and let it really sink in...then choose how to start your day tomorrow...

Michael is the kind of guy you love to hate. He is always in a
good mood and always has something positive to say. When
someone would ask him how he was doing, he would reply, "If I
were any better, I would be twins!"

He was a natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad
day, Michael was there telling the employee how to look on the
positive side of the situation.

Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up to
Michael and asked him, "I don't get it! You can't be a positive
person all of the time. How do you do it?"

Michael replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself,
'Mike, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a
good mood or you can choose to be in a bad mood.' I choose to
be in a good mood.

"Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim
or I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it.

"Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to
accept their complaining or I can point out the positive side of
life. I choose the positive side of life."

"Yeah, right, it isn't that easy," I protested.

"Yes, it is," Michael said. Life is all about choices. When you
cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose
how you react to situations. You choose how people will affect
your mood. You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. "The
bottom line is: It's your choice how you live life."

I reflected on what Michael said. Soon thereafter, I left the tower industry to start my own business. We lost touch, but I often thought about him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it.

Several years later, I heard that Michael was involved in a
serious accident, falling some 60 feet from a communications
tower. After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care,
Michael was released from the hospital with rods placed in his
back.

I saw Michael about six months after the accident. When I asked
him how he was, he replied, "If I were any better, I'd be twins.
Wanna see my scars?"

I declined to see his wounds, but did ask him what had gone
through his mind as the accident took place. "The first thing that went through my mind was the well being of my soon-to-be-
born daughter," Michael replied. "Then, as I lay on the ground, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or I could choose to die. I chose to live."

"Weren't you scared? Did you lose consciousness?" I asked.

Michael continued, "The paramedics were great.They kept
telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me
into the ER and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors
and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read 'He's a dead man.' I knew I needed to take action."

"What did you do?" I asked. "Well, there was a big burly nurse
shouting questions at me," said Michael. "She asked if I was
allergic to anything. 'Yes,' I replied. The doctors and nurses
stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep
breath and yelled, 'Gravity.' Over their laughter, I told them, 'I am choosing to live. Operate on me as if I am alive, not dead'."

Michael lived, thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude. I learned from him that every day we have the choice to live fully. Attitude, after all, is everything.



P/S : This is my 200th post. Glad that it is INSPIRATIONAL! Instead of some crap from me. AHAHA. ;)

I don't wanna be NOBODY!

I just wanna be me, okay???

   But, I don't wanna be the "old" me! Owh pretty please God. I want to live a simple life. I can't handle a billion things at a time. =((( I'm really becoming restless. Goshhhhh. =S

   Please let me focus please. Thank you. =/

12/12/10.♥

This is just some random post, early in the morning. Nothing special about this DATE, okay. Don't make assumptions just because I've placed a "♥" right beside it. Aha!

   Yesterday, I really had fun umpiring the PMA badminton tournament aka friendly-match. It was totally exhausting to both play and umpire at the same time, but I manage to do it anyway. I lost to Kom and Nimrat on the very first match, but never mind, I know what are my weakness yesterday. ;)

   I've lost count on how many games have I umpired, around 4-5 sets, probably? Heh. I'm not so sure. Anyway, I enjoyed it. So, the afford was worth it. I'm glad I've volunteered to accept the job. At least, I've gained some experience in umpiring. :D

   Thanks to the organizers for setting up such a great event, the players for the entertainment, my fellow friends and the POM POM girls! And not forgetting my fellow umpires. Hope more of these kind of events to be organized soon. At least it could reduce the boredom in this lonely place called PV. Ahaha. :P

   My body has started to ache, and i'm having my so-called "Normal Headache" thingy right now . And I've to cancel my plan to the talk at college today. Sorry. Hee. That's all for now. Have to start my revision for the Physics test next week. Signing off. Tata. :)

Today My Life Begins.

I've been working hard so long
seems like pain has been my only friend
my fragile heart's been done so wrong
i wondered if i'd ever heal again.

ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change.

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins.

yesterday has come and gone
and i've learn how to leave it where it is
and i see that i was wrong
for ever doubting i could win

ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change.

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins.

life's to short to have regrets
so i'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
only have one life to live
so you better make the best of it

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins.

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins
today my life begins.


P/S : I'm not "NORMAL" yet. Still emo-ish. ='(

Absent-Minded.

I don't know what is it with me today, but I'm going nuts. Ahaha. Perhaps another hyperactivity in the BRAIN??? Lolz. This is the side-effect. Side-effect of something. I'm in a very very very unstable state right now. In fact, my whole human body is unstable, from head to toe. Gosh. That sounds a little hyperbolic, yeah. Haha.

   Anyway, today is Awal Muharam. So, lets stop all the crap kay? HAPPY ISLAMIC NEW YEAR, peeps! ;) Looking forward for a fabulous life ahead. Heh? Fabulous is the wrong word. It should just be, GREAT. I'm crapping again. Hehe. Excuse me of all these crap-ness. Huhu.

   Okay. Okay. Lets be serious again. I'm trying to pick up the pieces and solve the puzzle of my LIFE. Just give me a couple of weeks' time, and I'll be the normal "Aisha" back. Insya-Allah. Amin.

NEW YEAR, NEW HOPES & NEW ASPIRATIONS!

P/S : I'm pretty much homesick. =.= I wana go back ASAP! Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. ='(

Breathless. =(

Hopefully you’ll be fine without me by your side
Hopefully I will too
Times have changed and now I don’t even know myself
Do I even want to?

You can breathe while I will suffocate myself
What is it about you?
You can breathe while I’m out of oxygen tonight
What is it about you?

That leaves me breathless
You leave me so breathless
And now I can be
Out of sight out of mind out of sight of you, oh

You believe in lies
Like the one you told yourself
With your heart out on your sleeve
Make a note to say ‘it’s not over til it’s gone’
Is there time for you and me?

You can breathe while I will suffocate myself
What is it about you?
You can breathe while I’m out of oxygen tonight
What is it about you

That leaves me breathless
You leave me so breathless
And now I can be
Out of sight out of mind out of sight of you, oh


P/S : This means alot to me. =(

In This Song. =S

I may not know where I'm going now
This broken road is trying to tear me down
But deep inside I've found a secret place
That I never knew where I feel safe, when the world is untrue 
Here's what I've learned to do

Just sing this song and it takes me right back
Where I belong
Everyday there's a new bridge to cross
But I'm never far from home
If I put my heart, my soul, my all
In this song

I don't depend on friends
Cuz they come and go
My belief in myself
Its gonna carry me through
And that why I'm learning, oh, I learning yeah, I'm learning to sing

Just sing this song and it takes me right back
Where I belong
Everyday there's a new bridge to cross
But I'm never far from home
If I put my heart, my soul, my all
In this song

Just sing this song and it takes me right back
Where I belong
Everyday there's a new bridge to cross
But I'm never far from home
If I put my heart, my soul, my all...

I may not have all the words that I need to say, and I know I won't always be strong but I'm never araid
Because I hold my destiny and it depends on me alone, alone so...


Just sing this song and it takes me right back
Where I belong
Everyday there's a new bridge to cross
But I'm never far from home
If I put my heart, my soul, my all
In this song

Just sing this song and it takes me right back
Where I belong
Everyday there's a new bridge to cross
But I'm never far from home
If I put my heart, my soul, my all...
I'll keep putting my heart, my soul, my all
In this song
In this song
In this song

It's DECEMBER!

Before I start my usual blabbering on my life, lets see some life-enlightening quotes I've stumble upon while I was busy RECOVERING back my accidentally-deleted-pictures. =.= Now, lets have a look on them.

   You must be wondering, why do I post these pictures? First, its part of my wallpapers. Second, it actually affects me much. Yeah, it does. For some reason, it really does. Particularly this week. =)

   Okay, let me blabber a little bit about this whole frustrating + tiring week I've gone through. Seriously, these few days had totally worn the h*** out of me. Excuse me of the swearing. Hehe. =P

   Juggling between my studies, personal problems, pressures and etc, and its not easy. Again, as usual, I was emo-ish this week. Ahhhh, that's normal to me. But, this time around, the emotional pressure wasn't NORMAL, heavier indeed! But thanks to my concerned friends, I finally managed to get through those emo-ish stuffs. Never mind, problems are to be encountered and solved. Life is challenging. Without problems, will we be matured, critical thinkers? And without them, we will surely live a DULL, boring Life. Thank God we were given this "little Gift of life". Alhamdulillah. Hee. :D

   Anyways, I'll be joining the badminton tournament aka the "friendly match", next Friday, organized by PMA (aha! Pre-Med Association). Will be both the umpire and the participant. I can predict how tired I'll be next Friday. Huhuhu. ~.~ Will be doing doubles with Afiqah. Hee. We will WINNNN! Owh yea! For group E! Insya-Allah. Ahaha. :P

   By the Way! It's already the month of December. TIME FLIES! Gosh. I wish I could stop time right now. I wanna be 18 forever! Hahaha. xD

   Good luck to PASUMians. Next week you all will be getting your first Semester's results! Hohohoho. :DDD