What Are Words. ♥♥♥

The tone of the song is so so so sincere! It's so so so touching! I'm already repeating it on my playlist like for a hundred times! =')
Here's the lyrics :

What are Words?

Anywhere you are I am near

Anywhere you go I'll be there

Anytime you whisper my name you'll see

How every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah you say them out loud

Those words They never go away

They live on even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me

And I know I'm meant to be where I am

And I'm gonna be

Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side

I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah you say them out loud

Those words They never go away

They live on even when we're gone

Anywhere you are I am near

Anywhere you go I'll be there

And I'm gonna be here forever more

Every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

I ♥ You! =)

Day 7 - The most AMAZING thing to ever happen to you.

Actually, I don't quite get the challenge question. I'm confused. "to ever happen" is something you expect to happen or something that has already happened? Heh? O.o!

   Whatever it is, I'll just do both. Duhhh. =D

   I'll start off with the first meaning. Something AMAZING that I really wish to ever happen to me : IRELAND of course! ;) I wish I could go through the interview with satisfaction, and get hold of that golden ticket to study in an Irish university. Insya-Allah. AMIN. =)

   This second one is going to be about my friends! Specifically, my PASUM friends. They are the AMAZING people I met. =D Its not that I don't appreciate my Pre-Meds pals, its just that I love my PASUM friends so much! And I do miss my life in PASUM. Yeah, I'm not good in moving on with life, I'm still stuck in that UM comfort zone. So what?? Who cares? I don't! Duhhh. :P

   What's so amazing about PASUM and my friends over there? Let me tell you! Firstly, I love it that they don't judge people. That's the attitude I've been searching for, and I've found my group of friends who are nonjudgemental. Although I was with them for only a short period of time in UM, I did not choose to lost contact with them and I've known them for more than 8 months already now. Distance can't tear us apart, friends! ;)

   Secondly, I love the "teamwork" spirit you all have got there. Perhaps, all of you have got a strong AURA. Hee. I miss those moments where we all hang out late at night after dinner, doing our tutorials and revisions together at the cafe. I just miss you all!!! And I miss tasek KK12 too! HAHA. =')

My bestie! I love her! <3

Yeah! They are a bunch of crazy people. HAHA. But I love them! ;P

Abang2 sekalian! Haha. :P

Weeeeeeeee. =D

KAYAK!!! Owh Mus! Aku touching dgn kau ah! Haha. Tanak jumpe aku kan? Duhhh. :P

Owh. I miss DKU! :)

My tutorial-mates P2!

Things aren't the same anymore huh? =(

We totally had fun :)

My board. :)

Last day at PASUM. VANDALISM! :P

I miss The Weekenders!

P/S : There's a lot more pictures of memories in PASUM, for this meantime, I'll upload these first okie? Too much photos. Haha. :)

Day 6 - What have you got planned for the next five years?

Sorry for the late update. Hehe. Was kinda busy with those extremely HEAVY workloads. With a presentation to work on, an AnaPhys quiz to revise on, a practical lab test to deal with, AnaPhys drawings to finish up, Physics tutorials and THE MOST IMPORTANT thing ever - the Irish Admission Essay and preparations for the interview this coming March. Hell yeah! I'm stressed out again. Duhhh. =.=' Anyway, lets set those stresses aside and get going with the challenge. DAY 6! :)

University College Cork, Ireland. =)

   5 years. This is not a lengthy period of time to me. Insya-Allah. If I am fated to pursue my studies in Medicine, I'll be graduating that time around. Insya-Allah, AMIN. =) And if I have the chance to study in Ireland, I've been living and studying in Ireland for 2.5years and I would most probably be finishing my clinical years in General Hospital of Taiping 2.5years after that. Insya-Allah. Praying hard everything will go as planned. We humans could only plan and pray, Allah decides it all. Insya-Allah. I'll only hope for the best. =)

Ninja Doctor! HAHA. xD

   I wanna be a Ninja Doctor. Hahahaha. Nah, just joking. :P After my HO and MO, I aim to specialize in ENT (Ear, Nose and Throat). It has long been my target specialization area. Insya-Allah. Dr. Nur Azizah 'Aisha! ;)

Day 5 - If you could move anywhere in the world, where would it be and why?

Okay. This question had got me thinking....... Hurmmmmm. =/

   Anywhere in the world huh? Okie. I would most probably move to an island, surrounded by beautiful coastlines and an ecosystem of dolphins and other sea creatures surrounding that island. With a hill in the middle of the island, where I could watch sunset and sunrise each and everyday of my life.

   I would move to this island, to seek peacefulness and happiness. But, this island must have an advance technology system, so that I could still have access to the world. I don't want to be outdated. Duhhh. I just love water and I love beaches. The sea breeze and the turquoise colored sea FASCINATES me much! Heeeeeee. =)

   And of course, i don't want to live alone on that island! I want all my friends and my family to be on that island. Hanging out with them everyday. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. =D

P/S : I wish life was that simple. Hurm. =/

Day 4 - Choose any PICTURE and explain why it was this picture you chose?

Browsing through my picture folders...... Hurm. I ought to choose this picture :

That's me in the middle! Heeeee. Cute right? ;D

   Why I chose this picture? Hurm. This is a picture taken when I was about the age of 2 or 3. I don't really remember. This time around, my little sister wasn't born yet. So, it was just the picture of the four of us. I just feel loved if I look at this picture. I just feeeeeeeeeeeeel LOVED! I love those childhood years of mine. Now that my second brother has got married, and my eldest brother is getting married this year too, we all are already on our own. Living our own adult lives. I just miss those noisy, fun and lame jokes my siblings make. Insya-Allah, I hope we'll always care and love each other until death tear us apart. Sobs. =')

P/S : I really felt like crying. I wish we all could just be children all our life! ='(

Wosh. Tiring, yet FUN! =)

Sorry for not updating the challenge thingy. Hehe. Been busy with outings these two days. Hehe. :D

   Wednesday night, celebrated Bro Hilmi's birthday at RZ restaurant. The hyper-energetic mood suddenly came into me that night. Hehehe. Whoever got the "special" balloon blast treat, no hard feelings okie? I was just trying to make the party more alive! Huhuhu. Alhamdulillah, all the Group E members were present. It's not that easy for everyone to gather like that in an event. I'm SATISFIED! Thanks to the organizers. I really love my groupmates! =D

   Yesterday, immediately after Anatomy & Physiology Lab, we all went for an AWESOME outing. Bowling, Pizza Hut, Movies and sight-seeing around Penang Island. All done in cars convoy. Heeee. I'll surely miss those great memories. Although it was tiring, we definitely had FUN! ;D

   By the way, I've not done my revisions for the past two days. So now, I better get some sleep and start my revisions ASAP. :)

Thought of the day : Yes, we may make comments or maybe constructively criticize our friend, but NEVER JUDGE the way they behave. Because, they are who they are. =)

Day 3 - If you could have ONLY ONE WISH, what would it be?

Hurm. I'm thinking, I'm thinking, I'm thinking..... Ehmmm. I guess, right now, this time around, it would most probably be :

A GUARANTEED STUDY CHANCE IN IRELAND!!! Insya-Allah. =)

I'm really really really determined of securing a place in either UCC or NUIG. I really am eager to be a doctor. I really am passionate about being an ENT specialist. I'm damn serious dude. Yeah, this semester's subjects are freaking tough, but I know, Insya-Allah, I'll pull through it. I'll put in extra super-duper-truper work on my studies. I promise I will. Insya-Allah. :)

   I really hope I'll get through the Irish interview this coming March. Pray for me, guys! Insya-Allah. I'll give them my best! AMIN. ;D

Day 2 - Explain Your Current Relationship Status. =/

Honestly, this is a VERY VERY VERY sensitive question to me. Haaaaaaa. ='(

   Okay. Let's make it clear. I'm currently SINGLE. But, I'm not available. Hope you'll get what I mean. Some call me flirty, some call me scandalicious. HAHA. Whatever it is, I don't like commitments and I know, I'm not ready to have one yet. My life is highly complicated, and I wish to simplify it from now on. I prefer not to disclose it here. It's better to keep some privacy of my own okay? Heeeee. Fullstop. =)

P/S : Yes, sometimes, I do wish I have that someone special in my life, but nahhh, I don't really need a guy to make me happy. I have myself, my family and my friends. =D

Day 1 - Introduce Yourself. ;)

Hi dudes and gals! I was born on the 12th of October 1992. The name given is Nur Azizah 'Aisha Binti Ali Ahmad Noordin (Noordin is actually my grandfather's name, I don't know why my I/C has an extra name =.='''). Nickname? Aha! I get a lot of those from my friends. Some call me Aisha, Azizah, Jijah, Icey, NAA, NAAAAN, Sha, and etc. Of all those nicknames, I prefer to be known as Icey Aisha. That's the nickname I hold since Form 1. :)

   I grew up in an awesome town called Ampang. Never had any pre-school education. Yeah that's right, I was sent straight into primary school with no basic ABC education. HAHA. Been to SJK (C) Lai Meng and then SMJK Confucian. Received Chinese education since primary school, and this makes me TRILINGUAL. And I'm proud and grateful of that. :)

My family was featured in TELL magazine. Hee. :D

   Been to PASUM (Pusat Asasi Sains Universiti Malaya) for a couple of months, before being enrolled by MARA into the current course I'm doing, Foundation in Pre-Medical Studies here in ACMS, Kepala Batas, Penang. (In case you don't know what ACMS is, it actually stands for Allianze College of Medical Sciences, now it has been given the recognition of a University College, so it's AUCMS.) But honestly, I still do love my life in PASUM. It's kinda saddening to leave that beautiful place and its people. I miss them all. :')

   I'm a F1 freak, I love the colour GREEN, and I adore cats much! A die-hard fan of Sebastian Vettel from RedBull Racing. Heeee. I ♥ Seb! Basically, I'm a friendly girl who gets along with almost everyone and yes I am a little outspoken as I often speak my mind. I'm quite confident of my abilities, yeah, but sometimes even a tiny problem could make me EMO, perhaps I'm just being sensitive. Wuwuwuwu. I like to cry, to let everything out, because to me, that's the best way to make me feel better. :)

That's all for today, I guess. I'm just some other random average girl in the world, nothing is that special about me. Haha. :)

A Challenge. =)

I found this in Syapiq's blog. Seeing him posting and updating the challenge posts, somehow had got me feeling of joining the challenge too. Heeeee. Syapiq, I ambik eh? Thanks. Huhu. :)

   So, I'll kickoff the challenge tomorrow. Insya-Allah, if I'm free and not that exhausted. HEHE. :P

WHEN the pieces don't fit ANYMORE!

When that doesn't work no more.
When the conversations aren't that exciting anymore.
When that spark isn't there anymore.
When people don't care no more.
When you don't seem to take it seriously anymore.
When yesterday weren't that important no more.
When those dates was not in your mind anymore.
When that person is no one special to you no more.
When feelings starts to not grow anymore.
When a text isn't that important no more.
When someone is not important in someone's life anymore.
When that daily routine is not there anymore.
When no one is there to catch your tears anymore.
When the presence does makes a difference no more.
When that particular place or time makes you happy no more.
When remembering someone makes you feel energetic no more.
When there's no one there to lift your spirit up anymore.
When there's returning back no more.
When 7 days aren't enough no more.
When those aren't your priority no more.
When those craziness strikes no more.

Dang. I'm crazy! Duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. =S

Bro. Get well soon. =)

I dedicate this post to one of my friend. A special friend to my best friend, and I consider him as one of my closest friend in PASUM. :)

   Let's pray that he will get well very soon. And babe, I'm so so so worried about you. Please be very strong okie? I'm always here to lend my ears. Please, please, please be strong. Focus on your studies. Let that be your priority right now. Insya-Allah, we all will pray for his recovery. Amin. =D

P/S : If you are reading this B, aku tak kisah kalau kau tak igt kite smua, only time could heal your sickness. Kite smua kawan kau, kite akan still sabar and tlg kau go through this hardship okay? Walaupun aku jauh dari korg smua, tpi hati aku still dekat dgn korg. =')

Anatomy & Physiology. =S

Before I proceed to Ana & Phys, let me talk on my exhausting journey yesterday and my trip to Kota Bharu. :)

   Monday. Flew from LCCT to Kota Bharu. The place was kinda awesome, because I love to sight-see new stuffs and the nature, especially that awesome river view and boats on the Kelantan river. The place is well developed to me, compared to Kepala Batas. =.=''' HAHA. No offence Kepala Batas. :P I window shopped and toured the places. Went to Wakaf Che Yeh that night. Shopping lah! Haha. :D

   Tuesday. The DAY! My brother got married at the mosque located near the house of my sister-in-law, in PCB. I was totally exhausted to the max that day, because I didn't had enough sleep the night before AND me and sister had to be the family cameraman. LOLZ. Alhamdulillah. It went well. The after-nikah food was AWESOME dude. Hehe. I'll grow fat if I stay in Kelantan. HAHA. :P On that particular night, me and my siblings went for a random tour around the area. It was fun! I miss those kinda siblings hangouts! =)

My bro getting ready. Hee. :)

My sister-in-law. She's so sweet! <3

   Wednesday. I had to go back to Penang. Saddening isn't it? Hurm. =( Took the flight from KB straight to Penang Bayan Lepas Airport, yesterday morning. It was an EXHAUSTING DAY! Flight-Bus-Ferry-Taxi-Class. I know I should have just rested at home instead. But, nah, never mind, I don't wanna miss too much classes. Semester 3 is definitely A LOT TOUGHER! My stress levels is going to double up anytime from now. With the Irish interview and IELTS exams coming up soon. Aish. =.='''

   By the way. I'm really really really scared of the subject Anatomy and Physiology. I'm freaking out too soon, I know. Honestly, I am really weak when it comes to memorizing things. Hopefully, I'll manage to get through all this easily with the help of Allah. Insya-Allah. Amin. :)

P/S : And I hope my cough and runny nose will be better within this week. Insya-Allah. =D

Without You. =/

If you had a choice
Then what would you chose to do
I could live without money
I could live without the fame
And if everyday was sunny
I could live without the rain
And if I ever went up to heaven
I would fall right back down
That life wouldn't be worth living
Because you're the one I couldn't live without

If I couldn't blink
Would I still be able to see you
I couldn't imagine
Without arms could I reach
No way could I ever hold you

I need these things
Like I need you
If you had a choice
What would you chose
I could live without money
I could live without the fame
And if everyday was sunny
I could live without the rain
And if I ever went up to heaven
I would fall right back down
That life wouldn't be worth living
Because you're the one I couldn't live without

If I couldn't dream
Would I believe that there could be a you and me
And if I couldn't sing
Would you be able to hear my melody
And know that something's wrong
And I'm afraid that you're moving on
How can I fly when you're my wings

I need these things
Like I need you
If you had a choice
What would you chose
I could live without money
I could live without the fame
And if everyday was sunny
I could live without the rain
And if I ever went up to heaven
I would fall right back down
That life wouldn't be worth living
Because you're the one I couldn't live without

You can take it all from me
And it wouldn't mean anything
Turn the whole world against me
As long as you don't leave
Its getting hard for me to sleep
Even harder for me to breathe
I'm used to life with you
Tell me what I need to do

I could live without money
I could live without the fame
And if everyday was sunny
I could live without the rain
And if I ever went up to heaven
I would fall right back down
That life wouldn't be worth living
Because you're the one I couldn't live without

I could live without money
I could live without the fame
And if everyday was sunny
I could live without the rain
And if I ever went up to heaven
I would fall right back down
That life wouldn't be worth living
Because you're the one I couldn't live without 


P/S : IMYSM! =')

I'm serious! Crying makes me stronger! =')

Tomorrow I'll depart from KLIA to Kota Bharu and Wednesday flying straight back to Penang. ='((( I'm freaking sad, dude! Sad to leave home and head back to Penang. To that dead town called Kepala Batas. I just don't feel like returning at all. As usual. Duhhh. =S

   I'll miss the classes on Monday and hopefully I'll be able to attend evening classes on Wednesday. Insya-Allah. Owh God. Why does the feeling of not wanting to let go always defeats my mind? It always do! I get attached to things too easily, and sometimes letting go may be the last thing in the world that I could do. Aishhh! =.='''

   Thus, crying is all I could do. My coughs and runny nose aren't getting better. I'm stubborn, yeah I am. I refuse to take in medicine. Hehe. Let me be, okay? Medicines complicates my body systems. So, I just hate them. Yeah, I wanna be a doctor, but no medications associated please? :P

♥Life is a game of a picture puzzle. Once you combine those missing pieces of puzzles, you'll get the real picture of it.♥

 Insya-Allah. I hope I could find those missing pieces. Hope so....... =/

P/S : Please take care of my heart and feelings, please? Thank you. ILYSM.♥

If you could have anything right now, what would be the thing you want the most? :)

If you could have anything right now, what would be the thing you want the most? :)

Answer here

;D

   I've just recovered from the fever-attack, but the flu and cough has not been eliminated from my system. But, I'm feeling better already. Alhamdulillah. I wanted to get out of the house and get some good view of KL, but my body is not that strong enough yet. So, I better stay home and rest for another day, until I recover completely, and then I'll make my plans and go out! Hee. :D

   It has been a while since I've got this kinda fever and flu. Luckily, I was at home. Home fever I guess? Haha. At least, I've got my family to take care of me when I'm sick. My mummy! Hehe. =)

   Yeah, staying home doing nothing is undeniably boring. But, I'll find something to occupy me today. Hehe. For example, the Personal Statement for the Irish interview? Gosh! It has to be submitted next week, 19th of Feb! *latest info: it must be done early. this is not a confirmed date*. I didn't know until today, after I've checked on the Pre-Meds' facebook wall! Gossssssssssshhhhh. The time given is short, dude. I must come up with something awesome? to impress them. 1 week is all I have now. So, I'll do it in one day's time, and reedit it everyday? Heh? Can I do that? Hahaha. Good luck, peeps. ;)

Firework by Katy Perry. =D

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there's still a chance for you?
Cause there's a spark in you!

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon


P/S : I've been watching the MV over and over again for a month already, as it has somehow managed to inspire me. =)

Deactivated. Have to. At least for this couple of days. :)

P/S : I'll be back soon. This is temporary. But, I actually felt like DELETING my account! Duhhh. =S

I've LOST that something in ME. ='(

I feel EMPTY. Very very empty. My heart seems to have lost that little something. Something crucially important in life. I just can't seem to figure what is that "something". I'm really really down these few days. Normally, outings and hang outs will at least elevate my mood. I've been out of the house almost everyday now, spent time with my sisters and parents. Up until now, my mood has not improved, and I think it has worsen instead. I just am LOST in my little world, i guess. =/

   Sometimes I just feel I've lost my direction and purpose of life. I feel strayed. Now, I need Allah the most. Owh please God, guide me through this hardship. I'm totally lost. I've no mood to do anything at all. I'm just LOST! ='(

   And, normally crying does help me a little bit. Now, it doesn't anymore. I want to talk to someone, but, I guess, I should just keep it to myself for now. I big enough to handle this, I think. Hurm. ='S

P/S : I really need some motivation now.

F1 FEVER is Backkkk on Trackkkk! ;)

My NEW desktop background. Weee. Hell Yeah, I'm Seb's freakiest fan! RedBull RULES! =D

I <3 Seb!

GOOD LUCK to you SEB! & to Mark too. ;D

P/S : Everything will be RED, BLUE, and YELLOW when it comes to REDBULL. ;D

Lets Pray for our fellow muslims friends in Egypt. =)

Insya-Allah. They'll be fine. Insya-Allah. Amin.
Lets doa for them. :)

Home and Bored. Hurm. =/

Yeah. I do MISS home. But, that does not mean that I have to stay home the entire week and not go out! Duhhh. I have a good life, yeah, good family, but sometimes my parents are being over-protective. Argh. I am going to be 19 this year, and I wonder, when am I going to be given a little more freedom? Owh pleaseeeeee. =S

   Am I going to be staying at home this entire 3 weeks? Gosh. No way!!! I miss KL too. Sob Sob.

   Boredom surrounds me these few days. My Facebook wall keeps being updated and I'm sure the "length of my wall" will be more than 10meters by the end of the week. It will be that longggggggggg. Ahaha. xD

   Thinking of cleaning up my room, but hurm. Nah... Nevermind. It's UNCLEAN-ABLE. Haha. I wanted to do some gardening, but, the rain kept pouring down non-stop. It's freaking cold dude. And, I'd thought of going for a jog, but I left my sport shoes in Penang. Great! Duhhh. Swimming? I left my swimsuit in Penang too. AHA! Ice-skating? I'm not allowed to go out, remember?! What else could I do at home, apart from fb-ing and watching those lameeee shows on TV? Duhhh. Suggestions please?

   I do not like being too free. I wish I had something to do, like homeworks or tutorials? Haha. I miss those school days back then. I love being busy and busy has always been in my life since primary school. You know, how Chinese school shower the pupils with homeworks everyday. Yeah. I'm so used of being busy. And now, not having a single thing to do is killing me. Aishhh. =.='''

   I'm preparing bits for the Irish University interview, later in March. But, that couldn't fill my whole week, could it? Ireland. Ireland. Ireland. You are freaking me out with that Irish accent dude. Gosh. Hope the panels won't have that deep accent of Irish. And I hope I won't freak out that time around. Wuwuwuwuwu. =S

P/S : Gimme something peeps. Please, I'm begging. I'm BORED! =O

I'm Hommie. :D

I'm HOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. =D

♥ I'm Still Breathing. =')

:: Lyrics ::

I leave the gas on, walk the alleys in the dark

Sleep with candles burning, I leave the door unlocked

I'm weaving a rope and running all the red lights

Did I get your attention? 'Cause I'm sending all the signs

That the clock is ticking and I'll be giving my two weeks

Pick your favorite shade of black you'd best prepare a speech

Say something funny, say something sweet

But don't say that you loved me

I'm still breathing

But we've been dead for a while

This sickness has no cure, we're going down for sure

Already lost our grip, best abandon ship, oh

Maybe I was too pale, maybe I was too fat

Maybe you had better, better luck in the sack

No formal education, I swore way too much

I swear you didn't care 'cause we were in love

So as I write this letter and shed my last tear

Know it's all for the better that we end this here

♥Let's close this chapter, say one last prayer

 ♥

But don't say that you loved me

I'm still breathing

But we've been dead for awhile

This sickness has no cure, we're going down for sure

Oh we've been diagnosed, so let's give up the ghost

'Cause I'm still breathing

But we've been dead for a while

This sickness has no cure, we're going down for sure

Already lost our grip, best abandon ship, oh

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Oh, I'm still breathing, I'm still breathing

Oh

Ouh Ouh! Haha. =P

Okay. That title was random!

   Tomorrow's Physics. I don't know what more to read or revise on. I've finished all the questions. So, there are none left for me to do anymore. I'm out of exercises. Hurm. So.... I don't know what more should I read on. Heh? I'm BORED! #.#

   Frankly speaking, my mind is already off, on its way back to KL. Friday is just 2 days away, and I'm going HOME! Weeee. Can't wait to pack my stuffs. Hehe. Owh, speaking of that, I'll be bringing back almost all of my clothes, because I'm gonna stay in KL for about 3 weeks. I'm sure I'll be carrying MORE THAN TWO luggages. Huhu. My brother is getting married on the 15th of February in Kelantan and I'll only be back in Penang on the 16th. Heeee. It's gonna be a superb loooooong holiday for me. Weeeeeeee! (I'll be skipping a few days' classes! Just for this once, okie? Hehe. :P)

   Owh yeah, I've been having this headache since Sunday morning up to now. So, I guess something is wrong, somewhere, in some part of my brain. Haha. Though, it's not that serious anymore now, compared to the past few days. Most probably, it's because my eye-sight is getting worst. The degree of my eyes' power is increasing. Maybe because I seldom put on my glasses to read on stuffs, and I strain my eyes to look at distant objects. Hehe. Don't blame me, I just HATE wearing my spectacles. It's so so so uncomfortable! Duhhh. :P

P/S : My heart is missing something. I hope it'll fade soon. A.S.A.P.! Don't distract my focus on the exams, please? Thanks. :)

SAYA COMEL kan kan kan??? Weeeee. =D

Wahaha! Someone said something. Wagagagaga! xDDD

Call It Off. =)

Have a listen to it! AWESOME! =D

Credits to Ammar for introducing me to Tegan and Sara. They are gorgeous TWINS! ;)

Lyrics :

I won't regret saying this
This thing
That I'm saying
Is it better than
Keeping my mouth shut
That goes without saying
Call, break it off
Call, break my own heart
Maybe I would have been
Something you'd be good at
Maybe you would have been
Something I'd be good at
But now we'll never know
I won't be sad
But in case
I'll go there
Everyday,
To make myself feel bad
There's a chance
I'll start to wonder
If this was the thing to do
I won't be out long
But I still think it better if
You take your time
Coming over here
I think that's for the best
Call, break it off
Call, break my own heart
Maybe I would have been
Something you'd be good at
Maybe you would have been
Something I'd be good at
But now
We'll never know
I won't be sad
But in case
I'll go there
Everyday,
To make myself feel bad
There's a chance
I'll start to wonder
If this was the thing to do
I'll start to wonder
If this was the thing to do

P/S : Maths was okay. I have confidence in scoring. Heeee. Insya-Allah. =D

A MILLION Apologies. =)

Tomorrow's the BIG DAY, and today I would like to take this golden opportunity to APOLOGIZE to everyone, every single person I've know all throughout my life so far.

   Forgive me for any wrongdoings I did. After all, I'm just another normal human being. I make mistakes, a lot of them, and I do learn from those mistakes made. I'll try my best to not repeat them. I'll bare those in mind. So, sorry peeps and thank you Allah for giving me this AWESOME life. I do not regret of anything that had happened. Life taught me a lot so far. Alhamdulillah. =)

   Thus, let's work out the very last revision before exam hits us tomorrow! AGAIN, GOOD LUCK dudes and gals! (I've already wish this for a countless number of times here!) =DDD

INSYA-ALLAH, I WILL GET 4.0 flat! Wish me the very best of luck! AMIN. ;)

Maybe - Sick Puppies. =D

When exam is just one day away, it's kinda nice to hear some rock, upbeat songs. =)


Here's the lyrics and Sick Puppies - Maybe! Heeee. Enjoy! =D

Maybe I'm a dreamer
Maybe I'm misunderstood
Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should
Maybe I'm crazy
(Maybe I'm crazy)
Maybe I'm the only one
(Maybe I'm the only one)
Maybe I'm just out of touch
Maybe I've just had enough

Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

Maybe it's hopeless
(Maybe it's hopeless)
Maybe I should just give up
(Maybe I should just give up)
What if I can't trust myself?
What if I just need some help?

Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

And maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try

And maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change!

The BEST study week ever! =D

I've had the most exciting study week ever! (Despite of the few crappy-stressful days in the beginning. Zzzz. Erase that from my mind! =S) Today, again, I was in Waziria, studying, for the last time in Sem 2. TWO more days to go, until the REAL exam comes. Haaaaaaaaaaaa. =S

   I don't really know how to describe the excitement studying with my whole bunch of friends this whole week, but the most important point is I HAD FUN STUDYING IN A GROUP! =D Studying alone is sooooooo BORING! Duhhhh. :P

   Thank you, friends. I had fun studying with you all. I'll surely miss these kinda moments later. Sob Sob. Anyway. GOOD LUCK in the finals. Insya-Allah, we'll do well! AMIN. =DDD

Exam FORMAT. =D

Physics :

25 MCQ, 5 Subjectives Calculations, NO Essay. =)

Chemistry :

30 MCQ, 20 EMQ, 5 MEQ.

Human Behaviour & Psychology :

90 MCQ, 2 short Essays.

English (Listening & Writing) :

IELTS style larh of course! Duhhh.

Maths :

12 Subjectives :

1-Complex Number.

3-Conic Sections.

4-DIFFERENTIAL EQUATION!!!

2-Numerical Method.

1-Statistics.

1-Probability.

ALL THE BEST, peeps! ;D

Yeah, it's WEDNESDAY! =S

Today is WEDNESDAY! OMG. 5 more days left to study for finals. I'm so so so gonna be.....zzzzzzzzz! Haha. You know what? I feel like getting in my bed right now, resting for the whole day and resuming my revisions tomorrow. BUT. Unfortunately, I could not afford to lose even 1 hour in a day, because this time around, the exams are tougher, much much more tougher than the finals in Sem 1. =S

   And, who says Pre-Med is an easy course??? It's NOT! Argh.

   Anyway. I hate it when someone who doesn't understand what I'm going through in my life, interferes and try to judge me. I hate being judged! I just hate it. So, please stop it once again. I know myself best, so let me be MYSELF! Duhhh.

I'm...

Okay. Okay. I've learnt something from this situation. Thank you Allah for giving me this test. I've at least learnt something from it. Thus, everything happened for a reason, or maybe for many reasons. There are hikmahs behind every hardship we go through. So, Alhamdulillah. =) I'm fine. I'm not that stressed out anymore. Thanks to the people around me for giving me some moral support. I appreciate it much. =D

   After getting out from my room, having a short walk around the area, breathing in fresh air, talking to someone about my problems =), and clearing the tensions off my chest, I feel more relaxed. But now, I still have to work my ass off REVISING. Insya-Allah everything will turn out to be well. I hope so. AMIN. =)

   Now, I'll scrape off my study time table which I've planned out last week, just to allow changes in my study plans. Hurm. For my friends perhaps. I don't know. Anyway. I am sincere in helping friends in their studies okay? I don't wish for anything at all. I'll just take the process as another process of learning. Sorry friends, I've been kinda selfish yesterday. You have to understand the pressure I have in my head, okay? So sorry. =S

P/S : I wonder when am I gonna be more competent in handling stress alone? Duhhh. I have this issue handling stress since form 4. Haha. So sorry if I've burden anyone with my never ending problematic stress issues. Hehe. :)

230th. =)

Up tomorrow : English Speaking EXAM! Owwwwhhhh Goshhhhh. :S

WISH ME A WHOLE LOTTA LUCK, Peeps! ;)

Insya-Allah. AMIN.

Here it goes again. =)

Here EXAM comes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay these exclamation marks are a little hyperbolic, I know. Haha. Today is the last day of the last class for Semester 2. And here STUDY WEEK comes! Haaaa. =S!

   I'm not going to be much around on facebook or blogger this coming weeks until the exam ends, because I need to work on a lot of stuff! Goshhhh. Pray for me okay, guys? Insya-Allah, we all will do GREAT in our exams. Insya-Allah. AMIN! =)

   I could already sense the pressure and tension that is going on now. STUDY STRESS. Hohoho! So, I figured out to get ready with the stimulants and stress-relievers : Coffee, Tea, Chocolate, and CHOCOLATES! Hehe. You know how much I LOVE chocolates. ;D

   So, okay. That's all for this week. Have to start working my ass off starting from now, consistently up to the last day of the exam. Owh yea, my Irish university entrance interview is on 11th-13th of March. So, once again, pray for me kay, friends! AMINNNN. =)

WISH ALL OF YOU ALL THE BEST!!!

Lets pray for each other's success. =)

Ara, Happy 19th Birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SITI SARAH BINTI DZULKIFLI!
*Btul kan full name kau? Hehe. Aku xsure. :P

May Allah bless you both life and afterlife.
May Allah give you barakah in life.
Good luck in everything you do!

Sorry tak boleh sambut b'day dgn kau kt UM. =( Sorry sgt2, babe! Nanti aku bagi present as soon as I'm back in KL! ;) I MISS YOU!
Thank you for always being there for me, babe! You are my bestie forever! Heeeeeeeeeee. =D

Insya-Allah. Aku doakan korg dua bersama till the end of life! ;) Awww. Both of you are soooo sweeet. ;)