Singapore Updates - SOON.

Just got back home. I promise you, I'll update my little solo adventure to Singapore soon, very soon alright? I've got lotsa things happening these coming weeks. Insya-Allah, I'll try my best to share. ;D

Where Are You Now?

For the first time, I'm posting JB's song. =.=''' Undeniably, he sings great songs, but he isn't great enough to me. Haha. =P

Where Are You Now?


Where are you now
When I need you the most
Why don't you take my hand
I want to be close

Help me when I am down
Lift me up off the ground
Teach me right from wrong
Help me to stay strong

So,take my hand and walk with me,
Show me what to be
I need you to set me free

Where are you now...
Where are you now
Now that I'm half grown
Why are we far apart
I feel all alone

Where are you now
When nothing is going right
Where are you now
I can't see the light

So take my hand and walk with me
Show me what to be
I need you to set me free, yeah yeah

I need you, to need me
Can't you see me,
How could you leave me
My heart is half empty
Im not whole when your not with me
I want you here with me
To guide me, hold me, and love me now

Where are you now.... ohhhh...

Where are you now..oooo
So take my hand and walk with me
Show me what to be
I need you to set me free, yeah yeah

Ohhh....where are you now...?

P/S : I am searching. Still searching for YOU. Where have you been to? Come guide me throughout this life full of hardship. ;D

Can I be Pessimistic for awhile? ='(

It's a total lie if I would to say that I'm not sad at all, at least a bit deep down in my heart. I was initially strong when I heard the news. As time passed by, tears started falling. My heart keeps arguing what actually went wrong in my head. I'm not so sure either. It seems that the optimistic me has been over-won by the pessimistic me. ='(((

   I am kinda okay with fact that I'm to stay in Malaysia to pursue my studies. At least I've a chance to continue studying into a higher level of education. But..... How will this news affect my parents? I am very very very sad at the very thought of delivering them the bad news. I really think I have crushed their high hopes. Especially my dad. This thought is killing me. ='(((

   For the second time, I was denied to pursue my studies abroad. It's really sad to receive this kinda luck you know. First JPA, then MARA. And for the SECOND TIME, goddamnit, I'm crying like *tet*! I shouldn't have reapplied for MARA in the first place, if I knew things will hurt like this. Now, what? I'm sad for the second freaking time. Great! WTHeck is wrong with me? Am I a loser, a total LOSER!? Okayyy, I'm being a total pessimist. ='(((

   Maybe I should consider on changing my field course, like what my brother said, "do not regret choosing this profession later in the future". Thank you for the psycho session bro. =.='''! Medicine is not for me perhaps? And, what if I do not get through the UKM interview also? Dangggg. Negative thoughts surrounding me. I'm on the verge of breaking down. Only God knows. All I need now is the strength to believe in myself. ='(((

   If so, I am sooooo going back to my dream Mechanical Engineering! F1 for life! Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. =.='

Thank you if you had been supporting all this while. I'm greatly a total pessimist right now. Ignore this insane crap if it affects your thinking too. I have the worst two years in a row!!! What a luck huh?! ='(

P/S : I need my mama now! =( Ya Allah, give me the strength to stop these tears. ='(

The best. :)

Insya-Allah, this is the best from Him. Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah, for clearing my head out of the denial of Ireland. Yes, I've called up MARA, and bad news is what I've got. But, my heart did not feel sad. Instead, I was very prepared to hear the bad news. Rezeki kat Ireland tak ada, but UKM here I come to show you my best. Insya-Allah. A good doctor is all I want to be. May Allah bless my life. :)


P/S : I am happy that Malaysia still loves me. Hahaha. And I'm happy that I still get to see my friends and *ehem ehem* later in Penang. :P

Optimistic. ;D

I'd rather view things from its positive sides.No matter what. To be optimistic is the best option right now. I didn't had the chance to call MARA up today, but some of my friends did get through it and had heard their good news. Each and every one of us have different kind of blessings from Allah. Try to be grateful for now okie friends? No matter you've got it or not. Everything has its hikmah. :)

   Ireland would be a great place to study in, yeah very true! Especially the environment, the view, the historical places, the people and all. But, have you ever think of this particular thing that you would have to face in Ireland for the whole 2.5 years, if you get through it? It's called HOMESICKNESS. In Penang alone, how tough were you to resist the urge to travel back home nearly every week? Think of it. Maybe Allah knows you could barely handle any of it, that is why He gave you the fate of staying close to your family. Insya-Allah, Allah knows best. Perhaps, you would perform way better here in UKM than you will in Ireland. Only God knows. :)

   I heard the environment in Galway and Cork are about the same as in Kepala Batas. How would you respond to that? Think again! Yes, maybe you'd say it's a better place, but you wouldn't know until you get there. And and and, our main purpose is to obtain the knowledge of Medicine, true? So, is there any difference in obtaining it either in Malaysia or Ireland. Here, at least, we could study the common local ailments and understand our people better. Plus, I've heard thousands of opinions saying that local graduates are far more competent than those whom studied abroad. Added advantage aite? Optimistic, be optimistic. :D

   And HEY! UKM has a darn good Medical Faculty okay! One of the top in Malaysia and among the top 200 in the world! :D Be grateful of the great opportunity you have. There are millions of people out there, those Asasians, Matriculation students, STPM, A-Levels, IB dudes, who do not have a secure place in any faculty at all right now. Be grateful that you are given the place in UKM. Alhamdulillah. SO, appreciate the chance given and don't give up just yet okie? Perhaps, you could travel after you've completed your MD later on and explore Ireland. ;D

   Smile. Never forget to do that always. :)))

   In the end, life has to be lived as fated. When destiny calls, nothing more we could do to change it. Be optimistic okay guys? I love you all. Insya-Allah we'll do great in our future. :D

P/S : Yes, I may seem a little bit optimistic, but you don't really know how worried I am right now. My heart skipped SEVEN beats okay! Hahaha. Insya-Allah. I will pray for the best for all of us. AMIN. I will gather all the courage I have to call up MARA tomorrow. Hope to hear good news. Insya-Allah. :)

Happy smiles no more. Gone. #.#

It has been 2 exhausting weeks. Until something great happens, I won't be able to get my happy smiles back. I wish I could vanish somewhere far far away, where no one else could find me. I want to chillax, take a long break and enjoy the happy-go-lucky life I had previously. I wish I could. But no. It's not possible. Never will it be again. ='(

   I felt of wanting to be left alone. Becoming hypersensitive lately. Gosh. I'm starting to turn into someone else, which I myself don't really understand. I need something. ASAP. =/

   Sometimes, I hate being bothered by people, randomly. It annoys me much all the time. Their actions. Their attitude. Them being hypocrite. Are that my friends? No thanks. I don't need those kinda people in life. I'd rather be left all alone.

   Till I find ME again. Bubye. =.='''

P/S : Losing faith in myself. I need my mama real bad. Come home faster mum! I'm freaking tired. ='(

June?! =S

June will be filled with results. Will pray harder in this month! Insya-Allah. :)))

   1st June. The IELTS results were released online. Alhamdulillah! I've managed to surpass the minimum overall band required. BUT! There's a big BUT there. Hurm. I did not managed to hit the minimum targeted WRITING component. Most of us did not. And I think I have the lowest band in writing, most probably because I didn't write enough required words in Task 2. Haaaaaaa. My bad. =.=' Now, I'm a bit worried that I would have to spend RM570 to repeat the whole test. Gosh. Hope they will consider on the overall band. 7.5 is okay enough right, Irish peeps? *please say yes~!* :)

   Lets move over to the next June-s. 6th June (4more days to go) will be the full results day. We would have to give Kak Ju a call, then she'll tell us whether we are on the 1st or 2nd list. Waaaaa. I think I will call her later in the evening, I want to be the last caller! I'm so scared that I will not be in the 1st list. +.+ But, it all depends to Allah's will right? Insya-Allah we will get the best out of our luck from Him. Amin. Pray hard, peeps! :DDD

   And the other June-s? I don't know what's gonna happen. I can only plan, with Allah's will, things will happen. Insya-Allah, in the progress of getting my driving license and most importantly, persuading my parents to let me WORK! I'm bored, very. =.='''

P/S : Lets hang out babes and bros! :)

To work or to not work? Heh? =.='

Okay. Duhhh. We'll start off with a not-so-good-morning. I'm kinda frustrated. Reallyyyyy frustrated! Frustrated that I've placed my whole heart in finding a job for the past few days, and finally when I've found a perfect job, finally got hired, POOF! I have to call it off last minute, because my parents do not allow me to work for the meantime, plus all the other excuses etc. FED UP! =.='''

   Lets seeeee. If I wait until next Monday, when the results are out on 6th June, and only then find a job, will I get a good opportunity? Will I get a perfect job to fill up these 3 boring months? Only God knows. Hurm. =/ Hoping that chances will await me soon. Insya-Allah. In the meantime, I might as well get my driving license fast. Haaaa. Lets be positive. Listening to our parents bring good barakah, yea? Okay, I'll be a little obedient this time around (until next week). Hehehe. :P

   So, the conclusion now? To not work for the meantime until next week. Haaa. That's the best solution I guess. =S

P/S : Good Luck Pre-Meds. Tomorrow IELTS results are out. And also, Good Luck for the interview and Sem 3 and overall results on the 6th of June. Insya-Allah, Allah will always show us the best path of Life. Lets pray HARD! ;D

End of May 2011.

May is already on its edge. I am already back home for a few days now. I've managed to settle down and unpack my stuffs. Grateful that those amount of things fits into my room. HAHAHA. :PPP

   By the way, on Tuesday, I went to Penang Island for a one night trip with my parents, before heading back south to KL. Overall, I had fun with my mum and dad. Thanks to them, I now have more additional great memories of Penang. Fort Cornwallis, Penang Hill, Georgetown. I love Penang, seriously! ;D

So, hereby I would like to share some of the photos I've took while I was on the short-trip. Enjoy. :D

   Now that I am so so so free, I would want to get a job, preferably a work related to the healthcare line. Hope to find one soon. Insya-Allah. BUT! I need a short brake these 2 weeks, before I kick-start my hectic life again. =.=' I prefer to wait for 6th June, when everything is clear, the results are out, and from there I shall decide should I or shouldn't I start working. This is to avoid clashes of work and study stuffs. For now, I will focus on my driving license classes and my family, home! Heeee. :DDD

   Good luck with anything you are doing, friends! ;)

Plans ahead.

Okay. I'm still suck in PV right now. Still waiting for my parents to bring me back home. =.='''

   Never mind that for now.

   So, I am no more bound to any program right now. No more hectic study schedules and classes. Relaxed mind and body. Yeah!!! Resting, hibernating. BUT, hold on! A too relaxed environment destroys me. Argh. I'm bored. Everyone is at home already, I'm still here. I emphasize it again, I'm BORED! =(((

   Figured out to think out of the boredom and think ahead of the free time in KL. The things to do when I reach home. Yeah. At least I have something to sort out of, rather than to rot here in my room, doing nothing but to face this lappie the whole day. Plain boring. =.='''

   Here's my plan. First of all, I would want to register for a driving class and get a car driving license ASAP! I love driving. (Hehehehe! Don't ask why. :PPP) Next, I would have to find a job to occupy myself during the 3 months' break. And then... I think I would have to kinda read up a little bit on the MD program I'm going to go through, Insya-Allah, either MD UKM or MD Ireland. Both would be fine. :)

   Apart from all that, I would also want to spend a little bit more time on myself. To get to know myself better and improve on some of my weaknesses. Yes, I totally admit that I've got weaknesses too okay. Nobody's perfect, remember? Fixing-myself in progress. Insya-Allah. :)))

P/S : Good luck with your free time at home, peeps! ;)

May this friendship last forever! Insya-Allah. ;)

Yesterday official marks the end of our Pre-Med program. 21st May 2011 - The Pre-Med Grand Dinner. It's sad to leave your friends, yeah it sure is. ='( But, may our friendship be eternal and not just end here. Insya-Allah, we'll see each other in the next 5 years as doctors. Amin. :D

   To my best friends, my housemates, my fellow groupmates, my beloved friends, my lecturers and AUCMS, thank you for giving me such great memories. I love you all! :)))

Till we meet again. Take care and good luck in Life! Insya-Allah. :D

P/S : Together we pray that we'll get good news from the Irish interviewers this 6th June. Good Luck you all! Insya-Allah. Amin. :D

^-^!

Amin! =)

P/S : Thanks to Ann. Found this in your pictures in fb. Hee. :D

My ACMS Life. =)

Special dedication to all my friends. =')

NFS. :D

Thank you for giving me that huge amount of epinephrine circulating in my blood. Heee. :D

   I've rushed my way to finish Anatomy, and it's down to a few chapters now. Targeting to complete it all by tonight. In the meantime, NFS helps ease my mind. Hehe. As soon as I get back in KL, I'll go and get the newest edition - Hot Pursuit 2. The graphics are awesome dude! Can't wait to get hold of it. Hehe. :DDD

   Enough said. Need to get some fresh air outside. Tata. Wish me a whole lotta luck in the exams and IELTS! :)))

I LOVE YOU, NFS! Heee. :DDD

P/S : This week has been kinda stressful for everybody, so try to chill laaaa. Hihihihi. :)

Break A Leg! :D

Tomorrow - D day. Final exam of the 3rd and final semester of Foundation in Pre-Medical Studies in AUCMS, Kepala Batas, Penang. Not forgetting IELTS too. Ireland awaits, remember that! :D

   Good luck, peeps. Insya-Allah, we'll be at our best. May Allah bless our life, and give us the best out of it. Insya-Allah. I'll miss you all for sure. Hope to see each and everyone of you in the next 6 years as doctors. =')))

300th post. Hee. :D

   Watching my usual Sunday F1 race. This time around, it's in Istanbul, Turkey. Go Seb Go! Go get that podium. Heeeeeeeee. =DDD

   Tomorrow, I have an English speaking exam to attend to. So, hurm... Nothing much I could do. Planning to watch some videos or a movie to brush up a bit on my English later, after the F1 race. That will do, I guess? Hee. =)

   By the way, I just want to thank someone. At least, someone does care about me. During times like these, exams are nearing, and I've to go through a lot of problems these 2 weeks, I needed someone to talk to. To at least show some concern on me. Thank God, there's someone. Someone does want to help me clear these messy head I've got now. Thanks for being concerned. I owe you one. =D

   Tensions are raising as the exams are approaching. This is normal right? Trying to balance everything right now. I'm losing my head already. Tons of things to study on, life gives me a hard time sometimes. But, Insya-Allah, all these will run through smoothly like the previous Semester. I want 4.0 flat again! I want to obtain more than band 7.5 in IELTS. I want to be in the 1st list of the interview's list. Praying hard. Insya-Allah. Amin. May Allah guide me and show me the best pathway of my future. Insya-Allah. :D

P/S : Good Luck studying, peeps! ;)

Butterfly Fly Away. ♥

Goddddd. I am addicted to this song, dude! :DDD

Sang by Miley Cyrus and her daddy, Billy Ray Cyrus. Hee. =)

You tucked me in, turned out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be

And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
Flap your wings now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
We've been waiting for this day
All along and knowing just what to do
Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly, butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away

♥♥♥

Manners.

Okay. I've always wanted to blabber on this topic. Since I'm not THAT sleepy YET and I have a bit of a time right now, so I chose to spend a little time to write on this now. Hee. =)

   Manners. I will just talk on the things I hate seeing people do, the things related to manners, respect towards the others, attitude. =)

=)

   Poor manners. I hate to encounter upon people who wants something from another person, but he/she can't seem to get his/her butts off the chair, to get up, and walk towards the other person to get the favor. Instead, that LAZY person will kinda "instruct" the other person to come to them. I just hate seeing this happen all the time. Lazy bumps, please lah weh! If you want something, don't expect the others to come to you. Go get yourself whatever you wish for. Diamonds don't just drop from the sky okay? Walking in such a short distance could at least metabolize some of your fats. HAHA. :P

   Poor attitude. I also hate it when people touch or take my things WITHOUT my permission. Is it that darn hard for you to wait, open your mouth and ask for a person's permission? Huh? Ever heard of the term "respect to people's stuff"??? (especially personal stuffs!) And, and, and.... I hate it when my stuff gets messed up by someone else. Yes, I love arranging things up, neatly, in order. My stuffs, my way okay? Duhhh.

   That's it for now. These are the few things I hate. Take note okay. Sometimes, I too get a little fussy on stuffs. Who doesn't right? =)

P/S : This is general. This does not relate to anyone. Chillax. ;D

{ } = Null Set.

Back to Algebra huh? No thanks. Maths is so last year. Duhhh.

   The { } actually represents my BRAIN! I can't think, I can't read, I can't interpret and memorize anything right now. It's all empty up here in my brain. There's a test tomorrow, and I'm stuck clueless, staring at the Anatomy slides on my lappie, writing this post out of the clueless-ness. @#$%^&*()(*^%

   Holy crappie day! Tired like hell, yeah I really am! Night classes wearing the hell out of me! But surprisingly, I'm not sleepy at all. After all that crazy + heavy sweating session in auditorium in TSS, I'm all fresh, awaked. But still, I'm mentally tired. So, come on crazy body, do what your brain tells you to do, SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP! =.='

P/S : Sorry, I'm crapping. The SIDE EFFECT of the flu medicine and the ADVERSE EFFECT of excessive sweats produced during Pharmacology, i guess? HAHA. :P

New Layout. =)

Customized Layout by ME! Heeeeee. Nice right? Butterfly, Green. ♥ =D

Only at HOME. :)

Only at home, will I be super-relaxed and abandon my other things, eg. STUDIES! =.=
Only at home, I could divert my attention to my family. :)
Only at home, could I bully and play with my lovely cats and kittens. :D
Only at home, could I enjoy eating whatever I want to. :)))
Only at home, I could be fully comfortable, talking and behaving like ME, the normal me. Being myself. =)
Only at home, would I sleep more than 6 hours. Sleep late, wake up late. Sleep early and still wake up late. Hehehehehe. :DDD
Only at home, will I be away from my phone most of the time.
Only at home, can I talk about my future plans with my family. :)
Only at home, could I spend time with the LCD TV. Heeee. :D
Only at home, will I learn a lot from my parents. :)
Only at home, will we be cracking jokes, laughing out loud with our siblings. =D
Only at home, will we feel loved. :D
and ONLY AT HOME, could we be free of the thoughts of the hectic, head-ache, heart-ache contributors of the world. Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! :D

This is why I love my home so much! Hee. :D

Blame It On The Rain. ♥

I'm seriously into this song soooooo soooooo sooooooo much! ♥ ♥ ♥ 

The lyrics :

You got me caught in all this mess.
I guess we can blame it on the rain.
My pain is knowing I can't have you.
I can't have you.


Tell me.
Does she look at you the way I do?
Try to understand the words you say

And the way you move?

Does she get the same big rush?

When you go in for a hug and your cheeks brush?

Tell me am I crazy?

Am I crazy?

I catch my breath.

The one you took the moment you entered the room.

My heart, it breaks at the thought

Of her holding you.

Does she look at you the way I do?

Try to understand the words you say

And the way you move?

Does she get the same big rush?

When you go in for a hug and your cheeks brush?

Tell me am I crazy?

Or is this more than a crush?

Is it more than a crush?

Maybe I'm alone in this,

But I find peace in solitude

Knowing if I had but just one kiss

This whole room would be glowing.

We'd be glowing.

We'd be glowing.

Does she?

Tell me does she look at you the way I do?

Try to understand the words you say

And the way you move?

Does she get the same big rush?

When you go in for a hug and your cheeks brush?

Tell me am I crazy?

Or is this more than a crush?

 ♥ He Is We ♥ 

Sinking + Confused + Leaving + Lonesome + Sleepy

Yeah. I'm sinking. Sinking into something. Something I'm not very sure of. Hurm. I don't know what it is exactly. I'm CONFUSED. Duhhh. =.='

   Well. Lets just get over that thing for now okie? Haaaaaaaaa. +.+

   I've been in a very very very irregular sleep cycle this WHOLE week. Not sleeping the whole day, slept for 4 hours the next night, then slept for 9 hours on the following night. And tonight I'm not sure how much more will I sleep or will I not sleep again? =O I'm seriously am getting confused by my own body system. Or am I confusing myself? Heh? See. Confused confused confused. Serabutttttttttttttttttttt ouhhhh. =.=


   The final exam is 2 weeks away. Just 2 WEEKS away from now. Excluding the study week, there is only A WEEK left for lectures and classes. After that, bubye classmates. No more fun, happening, crazy, out-bursting, random jokes in classes. I'll freaking miss those moments dude! This is the part I hate in life the most - The Leaving part. Why do we always have to leave something we already are attached to? I just hate this kinda saddening things in life. It just sucks!


   First, I had to leave school. Then, PASUM. And now, in 3 weeks' time, I would be leaving AUCMS. Leaving behind my beloved friends here. Yeah it's definitely something worth to be emo-ish about. I get attached to people very easily, and I am a hard-to-let-go type of girl. So, I'm very sure I'll cry a lot upon leaving. Wuwuwuwu. ='(


   It seems that everyone is going back home this week. I guess I will be left alone in the house again this week, in this lonesome dead town called Kepala Batas. Hope my parents are really coming on Sunday or Monday. At least I won't be that bored, staying alone. Hurmmmm. I miss my FAMILY! I'll only be back at the end of the programme. I've promised myself, and I would have to stick to that. Principles of Life, Aisha. Principles! =/

   Enough said. I'm getting the SLEEPY SYNDROME again. Warring myself to not to be controlled by the syndrome. Nescafe isn't working. Hurm. I just don't know what could fight this syndrome anymore. Tortured myself for jogs these two days, still, my body isn't as fresh as before. What more could I do? Tell me, please. I have to stay awake and fresh to study wehhh. Anatomy Anatomy Anatomy. Sorry for abandoning all the other subjects. I'll study them all later on. Perhaps on the study week? Huhu. :)




P/S : Sorry if this post is damn longgg! (and kinda crappy) Haven't really spent much time to blog. Anatomy occupied my life so much that I couldn't spend my time dating with my blog. Hehe. Sorry dear bloggie. :D

Falling Slowly. :D

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along.


P/S : Time. Time. Time. =(

Somewhat Inspiring. :)

Too Busy for a Friend?

One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space between each name.

Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down.

It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.

That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had said about that individual.

On Monday she gave each student his or her list. Before long, the entire class was smiling. 'Really?' she heard whispered. 'I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!' and, 'I didn't know others liked me so much,' were most of the comments.

No one ever mentioned those papers in class again. She never knew if they discussed them after class or with their parents, but it didn't matter. The exercise had accomplished its purpose. The students were happy with themselves and one another. That group of students moved on.

Several years later, one of the students was killed in Vietnam and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student. She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before. He looked so handsome, so mature.

The church was packed with his friends. One by one those who loved him took a last walk by the coffin. The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin.

As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer came up to her. 'Were you Mark's math teacher?' he asked. She nodded: 'yes.' Then he said: 'Mark talked about you a lot.'

After the funeral, most of Mark's former classmates went together to a luncheon. Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak with his teacher.

'We want to show you something,' his father said, taking a wallet out of his pocket 'They found this on Mark when he was killed. We thought you might recognize it.'

Opening the billfold, he carefully removed two worn pieces of notebook paper that had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times. The teacher knew without looking that the papers were the ones on which she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates had said about him.

'Thank you so much for doing that,' Mark's mother said. 'As you can see, Mark treasured it.'

All of Mark's former classmates started to gather around. Charlie smiled rather sheepishly and said, 'I still have my list. It's in the top drawer of my desk at home.'

Chuck's wife said, 'Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding album.'

'I have mine too,' Marilyn said. 'It's in my diary'

Then Vicki, another classmate, reached into her pocketbook, took out her wallet and showed her worn and frazzled list to the group. 'I carry this with me at all times,' Vicki said and without batting an eyelash, she continued: 'I think we all saved our lists'

That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried. She cried for Mark and for all his friends who would never see him again.

The density of people in society is so thick that we forget that life will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be.

So please, tell the people you love and care for, that they are special and important. Tell them, before it is too late.

P/S : I love my friends for who they truly are. :D

3 weeks prior to the finals. =S

Working hard. Trying my best to focus on my major priorities. Insya-Allah. I'll beat ME again. :)

GOOD LUCK, AISHA! ;D

Human. :)

Can you tell me how we got in this situation,
I can’t seem to get you off my mind,
all these ups and downs,
they trip up our good intentions,
nobody said this was easy ride.

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’ after all

Can we get back to the point of this conversation,
when we saw things through each others eyes,
cause now all I see is ruin and devastation,
we all need some place we can hide inside and

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’

I’m smart enough to know,
that life goes by,
and it leaves a trail of broken parts behind,
if you feel I’m letting go,
just give me time,
I’ll come running to your side,

Can you tell me how we got in this situation,
I can’t seem to get you off my mind cause

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
After all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’ after all

Any other reason
to stay instead of leavin’
after all, yeah

Ought to Skip that. =)

We are all the slaves of God. We are normal human beings. We make mistakes, a lot of them, everyday. Mistakes teaches us to develop that sense of matureness, unawarely. Hurtful words are constantly uttered unconsciously. Feelings are hurt, hearts are broken, disappointments occurs occasionally.

   After all, the most important thing in our life is the EXISTENCE OF ALLAH. Only He could heal the hearts of the people. Insya-Allah. May Allah always be our only love. =)

I ♥ Butterflies.

I ♥ Butterflies sooooooooooooooooo much! Heeee. =D

P/S : Of course they must be GREEN in colour. Hehehe. :P

Nyewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! =.='

I'm heading back home later this evening. But, sadly, there's no "weeeeeee" in me right now. I don't know WTHeck has happened to me, but I'm not that excited to go home anymore. Not because I don't miss my family, I just don't have to mood to go back. I just don't know why. Hurm. =/

   Where have that spirit of mine gone to? Please return it, ouh pretty pleaseeeeee. =(

   Whatever it is, I MUST go back today. It's best for me to avoid PV this week, to avoid more heart-ache. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. ='(

P/S : Hope I will have a great weekend this week. Hoping that KL will distract me from these heart-ache moments. Insya-Allah. =S

LOOKING FORWARD FOR F1!!! Hehe. =D

Not good enough huh?

I'm not good enough. I'm losing faith in myself. I doubt my own abilities. Hurm. =\

   Sometimes, Life is too challenging for me. Not to say Life is unfair to me, but the challenges God gave me is sometimes too hard to handle. It breaks my confidence. Hurm. =S

   Sometimes, no matter how hard I try to be the best, I still can't be one. Can I just give up now??? ='(((

I don't know. =/

Hurm. I don't really have the right mood to update an entry right now, but I felt like writing something for the past few days. Lets just talk about something random. Hehe.

   As usual, next week there'll be an anatomy test. The weekly Anatomy test. Aha! Blood and Lymphatic System. Yeah yeah, I know I gotta study, even on weekends. Haish. =.='

   Anyway, I'm crazily HOMESICK right now. One more week to bare, and off will I return to my lovely home. I miss my mum, my dad, my siblings and my cats so much! Sobs. ='( 2 months dude! I've not gone back to KL for almost 2 months already!!! This is the longest period I'm away from home EVER! I wanna go back. Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :'(

   By the way, next week will be the best timing to go back, as the Formula 1 will be held in Sepang on the 8th - 10th April. Huhuhu. I will find my way to get at least a glimpse of Seb and the other drivers. I MUST! Hehehe. :D

   Owh yeah. Wishing all the best to my PASUM friends! Good luck in the finals which kicks off tomorrow! Insya-Allah I'll pray for you guys. ;)

Telling The World.

Every part in my heart I'm giving out
Every song on my lips I'm singing out
Any fear in my soul I'm letting go
And anyone who ask I'll let them know

She's the one, she's the one
I say it loud
She's the one, she's the one
I say it proud

Ring a bell, Ring a bell
For the whole crowd
Ring a bell, Ring a bell

I'm telling the world
That I've found a girl
The one I can live for
The one who deserves

Every part in my heart I'm giving out
Every song on my lips I'm singing out
Any fear in my soul I'm letting go
And anyone who ask I'll let them know

She's the one, she's the one
I say it loud
She's the one, she's the one
I say it proud

Ring a bell, Ring a bell
For the whole crowd
Ring a bell, Ring a bell

I'm telling the world
That I've found a girl
The one I can live for
The one who deserves

To give all my heart
A reason to fly
The one I can live for
A reason for life

Oe oh oe oh
Yeah yeah
Oe oh oe oh
Yeah yeah
Oe oh oe oh
Yeah yeah

P/S : I'm telling the world, that I finally found you. =)

Missing You. ♥

I miss missing you
I miss missing you

Where's the pain when you walk out the door
It doesn't hurt like it used to before
Where's the love that we couldn't ignore
It doesn't kick like a pill anymore
Where's the thrill at the end of our fights
Where's the heat when we turn off the lights

I just miss all the miss that we made
When we still have the passion to hate

I miss missing you, sometimes
I miss hurting you 'til you cry
I miss watching you as you try
Try not to end up in tears
Begging to get back together
I just want you to be
To be stuck in a second forever
So don't freak out and believe.

Sometimes I'm just missing
Missing You
I miss missing you

There’s a dark cloud pulling me in
That’s the girl I was breathing in sin
There’s a blind force letting it win
And it’s longing to tear us apart
I get high when you’re making me weak
Let me down ’til I crawl on my knee’s

I just miss all the mess that we made
When we still have the passion to hate

I miss missing you sometimes
I miss hurting you ’til you cry
I miss watching you as you try
Try not to end up in tear’s
Begging to get back together
I just want you to be
To be stuck in this second forever
So don’t freak out if I leave

Sometimes I’m just missing, missing you
I miss missing you

Miss missing, miss missing, miss missing
I wanna crush in your arms at the other side of the world
Miss missing, miss missing, miss missing
I wanna die for you ’cause love is only true if it hurts

I miss missing you sometimes
I miss hurting you ’til you cry
I miss watching you as you try
Try not to end up in tear’s (ooh)
Begging to get back together (together)
I just want you to be (want you to be, yeah)
To be stuck in this second forever
So don’t freak out if I leave

Sometimes I’m just missing (I’m missing)
Missing you (no, missing you)
I miss missing you

ILY! ♥

Day 16 - What is your appearance?

You are asking me to judge my own appearance huh? I'm not really sure either.

   I just like to dress simple, smart and decent. Yeah, sometimes I do like wearing something that stands out in the crowd. I wouldn't deny that I'm an attention seeker. Everyone is! :D

   I get along well enough with everyone. I'm a people person I guess? Heee. And when I tend to be everyone's "sister", because I just love to care about people. Yeah, sometimes I think I annoy people with that. Hoho. :P

   I love being to places ALONE. But, I ain't no loner okay? Huhu. Sometimes we just need our own space and time to think about life and to do our own reflection on ourself. (For me, it's not "sometimes" anymore. Haha.)

   That's all I guess. ;)

Day 15 - Something that affects you that the others DON'T see.

Haaa. Okay. There are a lot actually, but I wouldn't want to list it out here.

   Sincerity. I'm sensitive to sincerity. I tend to hate it when people do things without sincerity. How do I detect insincere people? By their intentions and actions. It affects me much, because I often do things with my willingness and I put almost all my sincereness in it. When that sincerity isn't there, I won't start a thing! So, the presence of sincerity is very very very important in my life. Okie? =)

Day 14 - A Particular blonde moment you've had.

Hurmmm? Blonde moment huh?

   Let me check my cerebrum. Erm... I can't think of any right now. Blonde moment happens everyday, but none are memorable to me. So, yeah. I've a lot of blonde moments in life, but I couldn't recall any one of them. Hehe. STML! =)