Jahilliyyah!

Ya Rabb,
Please move me away from those jahilliyyah acts.
Please cleanse all these completely, Ya Allah.
Please make it tired,
Please make it bitter,
Please make everything jahilliyyah "inedible", Ya Allah.
I am really scared to live on life full of the old me.

Ya Rabb,
Clean away these unnecessary feelings of mine,
These worthless feelings,
These egos,
These angers.
I really don't need them, ever again!

Allahu Allah.
Clear my thoughts.
Clear my vision.
Clear my actions.
Most importantly, clear my heart from blackdots, Ya Allah.

;(

Sincerely,
Your sinned Slave who wishes for Jannah. ;|

Change of wind.

Can I stop chasing my dreams in the field of medicine, stop pursuing those dreams of being a medical practitioner, and instead switch to languge or arts studies, in becoming a poet or a photographer or do something related to animals, or perhaps work in the RedBull Racing F1 team???

No? Okay, fine. Bye. :P

P/S : Ignore these random rambles. ^_^v

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Saya bukan ustazah,
Saya tidak melanjutkan pelajaran dalam bidang agama atau seumpamanya di Mesir,
Saya hanya insan biasa yang ingin berubah,
Mencari redha Allah.

Jadi,
berhentilah meninggalkan persepsi stigma anda terhadap saya.
Perubahan drastik atau tidak,
Itu hak saya.

Sekian. Moga Allah redha dengan perkara-perkara yang saya ingin lakukan dalam hidup.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

WOW! 2012 : Faith Renewing Experience :')

Bismillahir rahmaanir rahiim.

First and foremost, Alhamdulillah, after being in the technical organising team of WOW! 2012 for more or less 5 months, the programme went WOW-somely! Syukran Ya Allah. :D

   After years of being a participant in various programmes here and there, this year I was placed and provided a chance by Allah to be in the organising team. Indeed, I've learnt a lot in being a facilitator and a committee member. Every experience counts. Indeed! Alhamdulillah. :D

   Frankly speaking, I wasn't having the optimum confidence earlier on in the programme. I actually had thoughts on focusing only on my job in the promotion & multimedia team aka photographing and documentations. Eventually, I managed to pull through, doing partial job for both! Hee. :)

   Not to mention the exhaustion. But, I loved what I was doing, so tiredness wasn't a big matter. DSLR seemed to be an obsession of mine, that never seem to disappear. Once in hands, it's uncontrollable. I'd be glad if you could buy me one for my next birthday. Because, I'm saving up for a car in Taiping, so DSLR would be great in addition to my gadgets. I want a Canon EOS 1100D! No Nikons please, they are super heavy. *exaggerated demands* Hihi. :P

   After all, we are doing this for Allah, aren't we? Constantly, refresh and renew our niyah (intentions), and may Allah bless every niyah we make. Alright, lets stop blabbering and lets get to the main point!

   In 4 days 3 nights, much knowledge were gained and shared. The thing that struck me the most was the knowledge I assumed I had, but in the end, it was never enough. Endless learning process of life! Huh! As of what Allah mentioned in Surah Al-Kahf, Verse 109 :

"Say, "If the sea were ink for [writing] the words of my Lord, the sea would be exhausted before the words of my Lord were exhausted, even if We brought the like of it as a supplement."

    We had talks from Ustaz Hasrizal (Islam Heritage or Choice? & Fiqh Overseas), Ustaz Ridha (The Ambassador), Ustaz Amin (Open Your Eyes), Ustaz Dasuki (Heart Clinic), Brother Shah Kirit (Comparative religion), YB Dr. Halimah Ali (Excellence) and not forgetting the student forum panelists such as Brother Amin, Hazman Baharom (student in University of Manchester), Amalina Zulkiflee (student in University of Southampton). Of course, these are not only the activities in WOW! 2012! :D

   Apart from being briefed in talks about life challenges overseas, students were also exposed to the physical and mental games that involves the fiqhs of travelling. For example, the khuf, the wuduk, the solat, the qiblah, halal and haram foods, and etc. Further more, participants were divided into respective groups that focuses on the places/universities they are heading to, and representatives from each universities shared particularly everything the participants wanted to know about the places they are heading to.

   But, wait a second, what's so WOW about WOW! 2012???

Let the pictures do the talking! :D

Yaya! :D

Ana and Pojah! :D

I adore them much! :')

Kira! :D

Pojah winning Peserta Paling Ceria! :D

WOW-laweh muslimat goes to Mun! :)

Nanad! <3

Yaya and her koala bear :P

Sorry for the disorganized list of pictures. Hope every WOW-ians enjoyed the event to the ultimate utmost of happiness! Insya-Allah. Hope to see each and everyone of you in UK-Eire this September! Don't forget to come over and join PUISI 2012, THE ROAD NOT TAKEN, with the special appearance of Ustaz Hasrizal again! Insya-Allah, I will be there. See ya! :DDD

PUISI 2012, coming soon! :)

P/S : Tiredness did not managed to bring my spirit down. My resolution after this programme is to widen my knowledge and istiqamah in participating in events like this, not forgetting maximising the Holy Ramadhan too! Insya-Allah. Amiin. :D

Sungguh.

Dengan nama Allah Yang Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Penyayang. :)

Sungguh,

Aku lemah.

Berkali-kali diasak bisikan syaitan,

Aku jatuh rebah ke tangan mereka.

Bangkit semula pabila semangat tiba,

namun tersungkur kembali dibuai nikmat dunia.

Sungguh,

Menyangka diriku telah hebat dipersada dunia,

namun aku tiada dimana di mata Dia.

Alangkah baiknya jika hidup dibuai kemewahan,

dunia mahupun akhirat.

Tetapi ku sedar,

pengorbanan ini tidak pernah menjanjikan kemewahan.

Sungguh,

Tangisan demi tangisan,

ketabahan dan keteguhan,

Itu yang kita perlukan,

Bukan hiburan yang memesongkan.

Sungguh,

Jalan ini tidak mudah,

Bukan seperti yang ku sangka.

Kerana jiwa kita,

Harus senantiasa mencari keredhaanNya,

Sentiasa mencari CintaNya.

Sungguh,

Doa demi doa,

Dengan pengharapan yang besar kepadaNya.

Harapan untuk ke Jannah,

Impian yang mungkin tidak tercapai.

Sungguh,

Allahu Allah,

KepadaMu lah tempat aku bergantung,

Dan kepadaMu lah tempat aku meminta pertolongan.

P/S : Guide me through your light Ya Rabb, because I know You will never disappoint me. :''')

Muhasabah Cinta

P/S : Addictive. Beware. :P

Ungrateful monster!

Bismillah.

Today, I discovered the ungratefulness side of me. It's neither a bad thing nor it is good. =/

   I have always envied other people's complete life, but never did I see the "complete"ness of my life in an angle. Baba, mama, I'm so so so sorry. This is a norm of a teenager, always wanted what's perfect for their life, never wanted to give a perfect life to others. Dunya is so deceiving. Allahu. ;(

   Let's reflect upon our hearts. Do we often look too high and never looked down? Be grateful of what you have in life, there are millions of others who doesn't have what you have. ie Palestin, Syria and etc. But this doesn't mean you should not carry out improvements! A reflection of a mirror is all we need. Insya-Allah, may He guide us through this witty place called the dunya. Towards Jannah! Amiin. :)

I missed this place pretty much! :')

P/S : Allah never burdens a person out of his abilities. He is the Almighty, the All Knowing. Allahu 'alam. :)

PicTime #1

Asssalamualaikum wbt. Peace be upon you, and May Allah bless your day today. Insya-Allah. :)

Time flies. These are my pictures since standard one till now. I guess, I didn't change much physically, but mentally, I grew. Alhamdulillah. :')


P/S : Reminiscing those childhood years.

Sya'aban

Peace be upon you. Assalamualaikum.

Can't sleep, so figured out to write a little via mobile blogger. :)

My stomach is growling like a thunder. Lol. Hungry late at night, or I suppose it's already early in the morning? Haha. The consequences of not finishing my lunch during the day time. Aseef rice, sorry for not finishing you. ;(

Appetite goes haywire, so does my mood. It went worst these few days. I seem to lose control over myself. My nafs is controlling me. Allah, please cleanse all the sins made, and clean my heart. I want to be strong again, to achieve what I've planned to achieve, this summer in this hometown of mine. Astaghfirullahal 'azim. Forgive me Allah. ;(

Anyway, Nifsu Sya'aban is a few days away. Lets appreciate it while it is still here, while we are still breathing. Lets prepare ourselves for the Holy Ramadhan ahead. Insya-Allah. :')

P/S : 6hours bengkel tomorrow, and I'm still not sleeping. I'm gonna sleep in class tomorrow. ;/